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I feel miserable.

Nothing has gotten better, it's all worse and continuing to get even worse. I told my psychiatrist that I've been having more suicide thoughts and the Celexa does nothing but makes it worse so he upped my dose.

Everyone is doing something with their life except for me. I've called in sick the last two days and I have a really hard time leaving the apartment or even doing anything in the apartment besides watch TV and sleep.

I'm scaring myself and don't know what to do anymore.

 

Please take care of yourself and realize (I know its hard) that you are an extremely special person. Kind, caring and compassionate. It hurts to hear that someone so good is hurting so bad

I know exercise helps but when we're depressed we rarely have the motivation to do ANYTHING.
PM me if you'd like. I can relate to your feelings

 

Is this a semi new to you medication?
When did you start it?
Were you suicidal before the meds? If so- is it a different feeling?
For me, though I Had suicidal thoughts before taking antidepressants- after being put on them it was almost this fight with my body to NOT pull off the road as I crossed a bridge. It became more of this impulsive pull to follow through on the thoughts......
Maybe you should try another Dr. or tell your current one you don't want to be on it any longer.
Hope you feel better soon........

 

spork, it scares me that youve expressed issues with your current dose of medication and your MD has prescribed a higher dosage.

please keep your wits about yourself (as much as humanly possible).

you are youre own best analyst. your psych can only evaluate what you need based on personal diagnosis and the information you give to him/her. you are youre own best judge of your state of feeling. be open and communicate with those who are willing to help.

please be honest with those who are looking out for your best interests; and dont overwhelm yourself/put pressure on yourself to heal. its much easier said than done. please take care xoxox

 

Hey spork,

I don't have much time to write out a long-winded response, but I just wanted to say that I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing well, and that my PM box is always open. I've been in a similar spot (albeit without the meds issue), and I'd be more than happy to talk with you about it.

As hard as it is, get out of your apartment for a bit. Even just for a walk around the block. It'll help to breathe the free air for a bit.

 

Please be very careful for us! Call that psych if the increased meds are making it any worse! All our pm boxes are open if you need us.

Maybe go to the library and see if they have that book

Hope it gets better

*hug*

 

All I've got for you are hugs, lots and lots of hugs. I've always found that being lost works for me when I get lost, if that means anything... I can be lost for years, if it takes that long.

 

Thanks for the love guys. It does make me feel a little better.

ocean: I've been on Celexa for about 3 months now and before that I was on Zoloft which did absolutely nothing for me at all. I'm also prescribed to clonazepam but that doesn't even work for me a lot of times. I've pretty much always had suicidal thoughts or more of an obsession with suicide I guess. I've had A LOT of people in my life commit suicide, which is both good and bad. Good because I know the aftermath of it and what the family and friends go through. Bad because I think to myself that if they chose that and they were 100 times more successful than me, why shouldn't I do it to? The thoughts have been different lately. I always knew before that I wouldn't carry through with it but now it's constantly on my mind and I'm not really sure what I'm capable of. I see my therapist next week and I'll let her know what's been going on and she'll probably tell my psychiatrist about it and convince him to drop the Celexa.

DS: The book isn't due back in the library until June 23rd. I put a hold on it.

Thanks again for all the thoughts and helpful comments, it means a lot to me.