Ok so today I'm day 5 day 2i through myself into precipitated wds the worst experience ever. I used dope the next day to get out of that slept another full day and used today. So im on a slippery slope with my detox. I haven't gone back into full wd. Not sure if it's because ive used. Or if it's over with. But i wake up with paws. So the next few days will be a big test I am not going to use again. I hope I have beaten this breast this time. I hope this is my last and I will never look back. Only time will tell I'm tired of failing myself and the ppl who love me. Every relapse is like a bad dream going right back into the mess I created and not being able to climb out. Like waking into my old room everything where I left off. I'm so tired of this life it's me or the dope. And i choose me.
