I didn't have a good Christmas. Kpins and alcohol and smoking cig.s got me through it.
And then there is BL
I come here and its worse...
I REALLY want to kill myself.
I hate me. Ppl hate me. Heck I bet part of my family hates me. What kind of life is that??
Its just method. I wish my brother wouldn't bring guns in the house. But whoever finds me...shit. I should get a coat, a rope and go hunting for a random far away tree...maybe days before they find me. I'm just a "Run away" at 21...
For the sake of family coming home. I'll take what drugs I have Soma, Ambien. I need real drugs SO SO SO SO bad. and pass out. can't hardly kill myself of that. I have a feeling that ppl will get the cry wolf thing with me...
until one day I get it right.
Shit my mom knows I'm suicidal and does nothing about my brother's shot guns and ammo out right there. Fuck are you stupid or do you not care...
And then there is BL
I come here and its worse...
I REALLY want to kill myself.
I hate me. Ppl hate me. Heck I bet part of my family hates me. What kind of life is that??
Its just method. I wish my brother wouldn't bring guns in the house. But whoever finds me...shit. I should get a coat, a rope and go hunting for a random far away tree...maybe days before they find me. I'm just a "Run away" at 21...
For the sake of family coming home. I'll take what drugs I have Soma, Ambien. I need real drugs SO SO SO SO bad. and pass out. can't hardly kill myself of that. I have a feeling that ppl will get the cry wolf thing with me...
until one day I get it right.
Shit my mom knows I'm suicidal and does nothing about my brother's shot guns and ammo out right there. Fuck are you stupid or do you not care...