SparklingAshes
Greenlighter
My advice would be to take a decent amount of time (perhaps a month) and avoid all drugs, alcohol, people, coffee, etc etc. And just try to find something that can calm your mind. I don't believe that there is such thing as a person lost so far within their own mind that they are hopeless. You just need the right inspiration to take control. It is more than possible for you to make a full recovery, and heal. As long as you want to get better, you will find a way to do so.