prayersfor.rain
Bluelighter
Ah when I'm manic I rarely know what I'm doing. I'm just doing, without thinking. I'm just going too fast to remember anything.
Lithium did NOT work for me, and I got terrible side effects that literally made me feel like I was falling apart physically and dying.
Also, life was boring on it.
I'm stable now, been stable for more than a year, on risperdal, wellbutrin and xanax as needed (approx 2x a month) and I go to therapy every other week. Thank goodness I have insurance. I also keep a regular sleep and eating schedule.
I have changed things, like, I don't do coke or meth anymore, I don't take mushrooms/lsd
() but I still drink and smoke pot.
And you know sometimes I miss the drugs because they're fun. But the after effects really screw me up. They're just not worth it. And I never liked ecstasy so that was really no loss.
For the first time in my life, this past year and half, I've been happy. Life is fun. Life is hilarious sometimes. It's sad, it's crappy. It's everything. And that's ok. I like it. But before that when I was on lithium, I was just in the middle and it was boring as fuck. And before that my brain was all over the place.
Lithium did NOT work for me, and I got terrible side effects that literally made me feel like I was falling apart physically and dying.
Also, life was boring on it.
I'm stable now, been stable for more than a year, on risperdal, wellbutrin and xanax as needed (approx 2x a month) and I go to therapy every other week. Thank goodness I have insurance. I also keep a regular sleep and eating schedule.
I have changed things, like, I don't do coke or meth anymore, I don't take mushrooms/lsd

And you know sometimes I miss the drugs because they're fun. But the after effects really screw me up. They're just not worth it. And I never liked ecstasy so that was really no loss.
For the first time in my life, this past year and half, I've been happy. Life is fun. Life is hilarious sometimes. It's sad, it's crappy. It's everything. And that's ok. I like it. But before that when I was on lithium, I was just in the middle and it was boring as fuck. And before that my brain was all over the place.