Juicewrldfan
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If you have bipolar diaorder or have extensive knowledge about it and treatment, how have you managed/functioned without meds verses with meds. I guess meds just always make me feel worse for some reason. And I really am not so sure I have it. My therapist if 7 years does not seem to think so and when I asked this new psychiatrist that saw me for 5 minutes before telling me I’m manic and would like me to go into the hospital for a bit to get stabilized. 5 minutes!
And there were zero safety concerns and never are. So hospitalization was silly for me. I understand some get so panic that they need it but I function very well. Just my wife gaslit me into thinking I was manic because she would lash out at me after work all the time putting me down for no reason and recently I said no more because it makes me start believing the things she says when she puts me down for example- “your a dumbass for calling roadside assistance and now we have a claim”
And as soon as I started defending myself she says it’s not her and it’s me because I’m manic. Gaslit me. And has been acting like this for years.
Especially when I have been diagnosed and meds helped for adhd but I’d end up abusing them so can’t take 1st line meds and I tell them that upfront nowadays. (Recently started doing that)
Additionally, I tend to take kratom for its stimulating effects which I don’t find to be overpowering as with amphetamine like substances. And I like to before social encounters and he saw me in an induced state ontop of being very anxious about meeting with him because psychs can really fuck you up if they don’t know what they doing or don’t do their due diligence in diagnosing. I feel that too many of them just like to try different meds until they find one that helps them they say it helped so that’s their diagnosis.
I’m cool in that. Probably abandoning this psychiatrist and going back to my GP and ask for Clonidine for hyperactivity.
There are some good psychs out there but few and far between.
And there were zero safety concerns and never are. So hospitalization was silly for me. I understand some get so panic that they need it but I function very well. Just my wife gaslit me into thinking I was manic because she would lash out at me after work all the time putting me down for no reason and recently I said no more because it makes me start believing the things she says when she puts me down for example- “your a dumbass for calling roadside assistance and now we have a claim”
And as soon as I started defending myself she says it’s not her and it’s me because I’m manic. Gaslit me. And has been acting like this for years.
Especially when I have been diagnosed and meds helped for adhd but I’d end up abusing them so can’t take 1st line meds and I tell them that upfront nowadays. (Recently started doing that)
Additionally, I tend to take kratom for its stimulating effects which I don’t find to be overpowering as with amphetamine like substances. And I like to before social encounters and he saw me in an induced state ontop of being very anxious about meeting with him because psychs can really fuck you up if they don’t know what they doing or don’t do their due diligence in diagnosing. I feel that too many of them just like to try different meds until they find one that helps them they say it helped so that’s their diagnosis.
I’m cool in that. Probably abandoning this psychiatrist and going back to my GP and ask for Clonidine for hyperactivity.
There are some good psychs out there but few and far between.