Binge recovery Advice - How bad is this?

[etarded2]

Hi Y'all. I stupidly binged on MD a week ago. I was wondering if anyone with more experience can tell me if I have a chance of recovery given my response so far:

Brain zaps: They were horrible at first. Every time I moved my eyes side to side (up/down seemed to be okay), I'd get a zap and get dizzy. The first night I bit my cheek (hard) a few times falling asleep. Zaps almost gone now, I only get them 2-3x per day.

HPPD: I already had a little bit. It's probably 2x worse since the binge, and I haven't seen very much if any improvement over the last week.

Tinnitus: I already had a little bit. I'd hear ringing in my ears after concerts, but it'd go away after a day or so. Since the binge, I've had a quiet ringing that's always there. I can only notice it when it's totally silent in the room. I think it's a bit quieter than last week but I can't tell. It's definitely louder at some times than others.

Anxiety: Nothing too crazy. I felt unsafe when I was getting ready to go to bed even though that wasn't true. That feeling has been fading steadily and is almost gone now. I have some anxiety about my symptoms but I'm not losing any sleep over it.

Depression: I had a little bit of depression for a few days but it was just the normal imbalanced feeling I usually get after taking MD. That cleared up after a few days. I'm actually less depressed now than I have been for a while for unrelated reasons.


The symptoms are annoying, but not significantly impacting my quality of life thankfully. The worst of it is the HPPD which makes it difficult to read small print.

I've read a bunch of threads where people complain of similar symptoms to mine, but never follow up after a month or two, so I'm hoping maybe someone who's been through similar experiences or knows someone who has reads this and can offer some insight.

 

[etarded2]

Oh yeah. I tested it.

 

[EnlightenedOne1]

Hi Y'all. I stupidly binged on MD a week ago. I was wondering if anyone with more experience can tell me if I have a chance of recovery given my response so far:

Brain zaps: They were horrible at first. Every time I moved my eyes side to side (up/down seemed to be okay), I'd get a zap and get dizzy. The first night I bit my cheek (hard) a few times falling asleep. Zaps almost gone now, I only get them 2-3x per day.

HPPD: I already had a little bit. It's probably 2x worse since the binge, and I haven't seen very much if any improvement over the last week.

Tinnitus: I already had a little bit. I'd hear ringing in my ears after concerts, but it'd go away after a day or so. Since the binge, I've had a quiet ringing that's always there. I can only notice it when it's totally silent in the room. I think it's a bit quieter than last week but I can't tell. It's definitely louder at some times than others.

Anxiety: Nothing too crazy. I felt unsafe when I was getting ready to go to bed even though that wasn't true. That feeling has been fading steadily and is almost gone now. I have some anxiety about my symptoms but I'm not losing any sleep over it.

Depression: I had a little bit of depression for a few days but it was just the normal imbalanced feeling I usually get after taking MD. That cleared up after a few days. I'm actually less depressed now than I have been for a while for unrelated reasons.


The symptoms are annoying, but not significantly impacting my quality of life thankfully. The worst of it is the HPPD which makes it difficult to read small print.

I've read a bunch of threads where people complain of similar symptoms to mine, but never follow up after a month or two, so I'm hoping maybe someone who's been through similar experiences or knows someone who has reads this and can offer some insight.

First off, what you consider "stupidly binging" is highly subjective. A bigger mistake than your "binging" is reading the internet so-called horror stories of people claiming they took 5 E pills and 15 years later they can't function in society.

I have a tendency to dicksize every thread, albeit I end them positive. I ABUSED Mdxx for a 12 year period eating over 3.5 grams in a 36 hour period the last time I ever did it. Of course through those 12 years I went through prolonged periods of abstinence and it DOES and WILL get better, however you must be proactive.
Hypocritically, I always followed a healthy lifestyle consisting of weight training and regimented nutrition and there are at least 2 or 3 documented studies showing the profound positive effects of exercise on subjects with former amphetamine issues...In my experience, the same applies for ANY drug.

Time will be your biggest factor, exercise and eating healthy will expedite the healing process, and just keep busy and refrain from reading and googling horror stories...Your mind is a resilient and powerful organ...Your thought patterns will dictate it's current state..

Force yourself to move and appear happy and if you have any questions please reach out to me...

 

[etarded2]

First off, what you consider "stupidly binging" is highly subjective. A bigger mistake than your "binging" is reading the internet so-called horror stories of people claiming they took 5 E pills and 15 years later they can't function in society.

I have a tendency to dicksize every thread, albeit I end them positive.....

Thanks for sharing your story and advice. I've definitely been trying to take the stories of long term comedowns with a grain of salt. Proper diet and exercise this last week helped me immensely with the blues and lethargy I was experiencing. I'd love to hear from more people who have experience with this.

 

[etarded2]

Well it's been another week and my symptoms have improved a bit. If I've slept enough, my tinnitus is much quieter than it was. I don't even notice it most of the time.

Hppd is also improved if I've slept enough, but if I'm sleep deprived, it looks like I'm tripping balls. Kinda cool actually but it would be nice to be able to turn it off. I'm getting used to reading with it, so it's becoming more and more manageable.

Brain zaps are all but gone. I had a few the other day when I woke up in the middle of the night.

Seems like the key to these symptoms is to just simply ignore them. If I forget about them, I find myself completely uninhibited, and it isn't until I remember my symptoms that it causes me trouble. Mind over matter.

I'm hoping this stuff subsides enough for me to be able to enjoy the magic again without worrying too much about worsening my symptoms. Also falling asleep without pot is hard.