My methadone counselor thinks I have bi polar disorder. I feel like I am being diagnosed with some new horrible mental illness all the time now. First it was depression then came Generalized anxiety disorder then PTSD now bi polar. I am starting to think that I liked my way of self medicating more then I like the FDA approved way of medicating. Either way I am starting to lose hope that I am ever going to be a functioning member of society with a job credit card apartment girlfriend... The scary part is I don't really think I care. Or maybe that's the Kolonopin talking. Sometimes I think everyone would be better off if I was dead.
