better?..

[only*cause*you*pain*]

Why do you say you care,
when we both know you don't?
Why do you say we can still be friends,
when you know we can't?
Why do you say you'll still love me,
when I know you won't?
How do I say I love you,
when I can't even love myself?
My whole life, I was a fuck up.
Never did good enough.
Always ignored.. by everyone.
You made me feel special.
Like I finally did something right.
But, you're not around anymore.
So, I'm stuck to being the 'fuck up' again.
I ask myself, all the time..
Why am I so upset, when I know
That you weren't meant to be with me?
You can and should do better.
So much better.
I do still have feelings for you.
But I think it's better this way....
.. I think..