thank you all for the advices... in the last 3 months i've been using lots of cocaine (i.v $ snorting a little), almost every day, and for the comedowns i use at least 4 tabs of 2mgs klonopin. I use klonopin or lexotan (bromazepam) every day too, in large doses for at least 8 months (except the three months in this period i stayed totaly clean, N.A way). the last few pills i had in my hands, i flushed trough the toilet again today. I can't stand this situation anymore, and i'm ready to do something about it, starting today. Because if i keep telling myself : "tomorow i'll change..." It's clear enough for me, right now, that tomorow never comes. The worst part of beeing an drug addict is that i don't know anymore the diference between my greatest plesure and my worst misery, them both have the same face: drugs... Again i'd like to thank you all for the support.
Ps: sorry for my poor english.