pally pete
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going out fort a meal in approximately 3 hours with some work colleauges who none know of my benzo use,i feel the requirement to take some benzos to fully enjoy the evening to over come my SAD/GAD.although i will be drinking alcohol (minimal amount planned) as we all know how much harm (medicinal and general who/what/where/when/why???) mixing the 2 can cause.
the thing is my family have become most upset with my benzo use/abuse as i go over the top and its obviously really noticeable ( the fact of me giving up benzos) i dont want them to notice anything,i took around 4 mg xanax and 4 mg lorazepam over the course of the last 2 and 1/2 hours and after just chatting with my mum nothing seems untoward,no slurred speech,staggering/shuufling foot movements and from what i can see by looking in the mirror (apart from an ugly mug!) is no apparent visual intoxication.
thing is im just about to head into the city centre yet feel quite nervous/anxious and the meal with the work crew is only 2-3 hours away.
so my question is which benzo would be best for me? more alprazolam/lorazepam? maybe clonazepam? but that does really little for me and the brand i have clonotril are babana flavoured and leave me with nasty heartburn (and as the planned meal is a curry there probably a very bad idea)
diazepam would be my number 1 choice but too long half life so il still be pretty out of it tomorrow!
temazepam have messed me up biug time the last few timew i have tried them,and they seem a particular bad one for mixing with even small amounts of alcohol and also leave me with big amnesia (as does alprazolam incidentally)
nitrazepam? how would that suit the situation? and nimetazepam just dont really suit me (they leave me feelin a mix of drunky,wobbliness and a nalmost feeling of like im coming up on a stimulant,very odd!)
tranaxe and oxycontin are out the question as like i said i want to be carefree and sociable,or as i like to put it 'feel myself' or how i once used to feel and how i remember enjoying life.
sorry about the essay and sorry if i ve bored you..
all answers/help/advice much appreciated as always
the thing is my family have become most upset with my benzo use/abuse as i go over the top and its obviously really noticeable ( the fact of me giving up benzos) i dont want them to notice anything,i took around 4 mg xanax and 4 mg lorazepam over the course of the last 2 and 1/2 hours and after just chatting with my mum nothing seems untoward,no slurred speech,staggering/shuufling foot movements and from what i can see by looking in the mirror (apart from an ugly mug!) is no apparent visual intoxication.
thing is im just about to head into the city centre yet feel quite nervous/anxious and the meal with the work crew is only 2-3 hours away.
so my question is which benzo would be best for me? more alprazolam/lorazepam? maybe clonazepam? but that does really little for me and the brand i have clonotril are babana flavoured and leave me with nasty heartburn (and as the planned meal is a curry there probably a very bad idea)
diazepam would be my number 1 choice but too long half life so il still be pretty out of it tomorrow!
temazepam have messed me up biug time the last few timew i have tried them,and they seem a particular bad one for mixing with even small amounts of alcohol and also leave me with big amnesia (as does alprazolam incidentally)
nitrazepam? how would that suit the situation? and nimetazepam just dont really suit me (they leave me feelin a mix of drunky,wobbliness and a nalmost feeling of like im coming up on a stimulant,very odd!)
tranaxe and oxycontin are out the question as like i said i want to be carefree and sociable,or as i like to put it 'feel myself' or how i once used to feel and how i remember enjoying life.
sorry about the essay and sorry if i ve bored you..
all answers/help/advice much appreciated as always
