Because you wrote the words maybe? I know you have made about 20 different posts in the last couple of days and seem to be quite manic and paranoid. It might be your meds or your Mental Health in general. Your posts are usually all over the place for a couple of days and then you go quiet for weeks. Then you resurface to gain assurances, but don't want to wait for info and comments to help you and get agitated if the response to your questions don't come quickly. No one here at BL is spying on you with cameras or knows how many drugs you have in your possession. Maybe you should take a little break and get some rest. I know you take anti-psychotics because you have posted that you do. Please make sure you are using your medicine properly