throwaway4benzos
Bluelighter
Hello, my apologies if something similar to this has already been posted or if this is in the wrong section. I have been self-medicating with RC-benzodiazepines due to debilitating social anxiety, specifically bromazolam.
I have consumed ~52mg from 1/7 until today (1/21). My last dosage was roughly 2 hours ago, which was ~2mg with ~1mg in the morning. I have been having terrible body aches, neck cramps, sleep issues, and have not been eating much for about 3-6 days. My best guess for the sleep issues (waking up in the middle of the night), and not eating is mainly due to marijuana withdrawal since I'm quitting and those were the only symptoms I've had from moderate to heavy usage.
At the start (1/7) I binged the ~4mg bars for likely 3-6 days (1 per day, or 1/2 in the morning before work and 1/2 during night. After my little binge, I started to break the 4mg bars into 1/4ths and would take one in the morning and occasionally one at night. I had a terrible panic attack today + awful physical withdrawal symptoms. My guess is the binge doses finally left my system and since I was on a much smaller dosage the withdrawal symptoms worsened.
I cannot tell if I am actually sick (flu/covid) or withdrawing, or possibly both. Also, the only other physical symptom I have been having is diarrhea, which started yesterday/today. My main concern is having a seizure. I can deal with the other physical withdrawals, but I'd prefer to not die from a seizure.
I have an upcoming appointment (Tuesday), with my long-term psychiatrist, and I will most likely be getting a benzo prescription due to them immensely helping me with my anxiety. I don't even want to "abuse" these nasty drugs. I just want to function like a normal human being. I've been on basically every SSRI and they practically seem to do nothing. If I don't get a script, I will not be purchasing more and will have to learn how to deal with anxiety via other methods, especially not involving pressed bromazolam bars.
Thank you for reading this in advance. Replies, and advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you once again.
EDIT: It was 100% withdrawal. Wish me luck on getting a script on Tuesday. I took ~1.5mg today and have 2.5mg left to hold me over until Tuesday.
I have consumed ~52mg from 1/7 until today (1/21). My last dosage was roughly 2 hours ago, which was ~2mg with ~1mg in the morning. I have been having terrible body aches, neck cramps, sleep issues, and have not been eating much for about 3-6 days. My best guess for the sleep issues (waking up in the middle of the night), and not eating is mainly due to marijuana withdrawal since I'm quitting and those were the only symptoms I've had from moderate to heavy usage.
At the start (1/7) I binged the ~4mg bars for likely 3-6 days (1 per day, or 1/2 in the morning before work and 1/2 during night. After my little binge, I started to break the 4mg bars into 1/4ths and would take one in the morning and occasionally one at night. I had a terrible panic attack today + awful physical withdrawal symptoms. My guess is the binge doses finally left my system and since I was on a much smaller dosage the withdrawal symptoms worsened.
I cannot tell if I am actually sick (flu/covid) or withdrawing, or possibly both. Also, the only other physical symptom I have been having is diarrhea, which started yesterday/today. My main concern is having a seizure. I can deal with the other physical withdrawals, but I'd prefer to not die from a seizure.
I have an upcoming appointment (Tuesday), with my long-term psychiatrist, and I will most likely be getting a benzo prescription due to them immensely helping me with my anxiety. I don't even want to "abuse" these nasty drugs. I just want to function like a normal human being. I've been on basically every SSRI and they practically seem to do nothing. If I don't get a script, I will not be purchasing more and will have to learn how to deal with anxiety via other methods, especially not involving pressed bromazolam bars.
Thank you for reading this in advance. Replies, and advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you once again.
EDIT: It was 100% withdrawal. Wish me luck on getting a script on Tuesday. I took ~1.5mg today and have 2.5mg left to hold me over until Tuesday.
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