benzo withdrawal need help

[duneplanet]

I dont have the strength to retype so this is what i put in my other thread

Hi. I am still on benzos so I am functional enough to type, but i experienced the withdrawal last night and I am not strong enough right now to handle it. 3 years ago I was on klonopin for a year. I got off of it and ended up having psychotic symptoms for a whole year after. Now 2 years after that terrible detox i got myself back on, starting with ativan. I started 3 or 4 times a week and you know how it is, got that benzo memory, and started taking them back to back without realizing it. welp ended up addicted. this was about a month ago. So then they put me on librium to get off. They also switched blood pressure medicines, meaning i was having intense panic and palpitations so id take way more librium than i was supposed to without realizing it. I was a mess. Now my doc tried to detox me with giving me 25 mg of librium a day. I was taking about 50 mg, along with the occasional klonopin. I didnt sleep at all last night, and was near mental breakdown, as I am today. I took a klonopin this morning because I am so hopeless. Just a few hours of peace you know? Ive gotten 3 hours of sleep now. I am getting sweats and chills now. last time i withdrew from klonopin i was on so much psych medication that i could sleep. now is not the case. I cant go weeks without sleeping. one night without sleeping makes me very, very paranoid and delusional. I need help. I don't have the strength for this. I've just been crying and wanting it to end. My life was getting better for the first time in 15 years. (im 20 now, ive lived a miserable, miserable life) and i messed it all up. What can I do to sleep? Amytjomg? Please help trazadone didnt do anything. IM down to 10-15 mg of librium a day and it is hell. My doctor offered me lyrica/neurontin but I wanna know if you guys have any experiences with them. My doc is at a rehab so he wont even give me baclofen, so barbs are outta the question. What can I do? This is hell. Please someone shed some hope, light, anything.

 

[burntserkits]

Trying Lyrica is not a bad idea. There is a good chance it will help with anxiety as it effects GABA also. It's definitely better than nothing if you need something to alleviate anxiety. Benzo WD is a serious issue that can lead to seizures and worse. Take it easy and be honest with your doctor about what's going on and I'm sure they'll help in any way he/she can. Good luck friend...

 

[stellablue]

I went through serious benzo withdrawl that literally killed me. I was on such a high dose to be numb it was hard to taper. Then during the withdrawls the memories of my jaded past come out and some things were forgotten and some forgiven, but it was literally to much for me and to the ones I love. So please be careful. You can not be to careful. It can start with who you talk to and still see and hand around. It is very tempting to MAINTAIN especially if you can access them ....but never stay at that in my experiences. So good luck and know you can do it if you really set your mind to it. *sends good faith*

 

[brandy42]

I can't do it - tho my character is strong.