Small story about me
I smoke weed daily for 10 years. Heavy stress for the last 4 years combined with depression but I kept smoking which made it worse.
My life made a u turn at 1 january and life was a lot better. And there 1 fucking month later I got a major panic attack, which I never had before or even heard of. And there started my panic attacks. They were worse then all the depression and suicidal thoughts I had all those years. I'd get them out of nowhere but also when smoking weed, less then 0.1 gram would give me a racing heart for 5+ hours, it was really annoying. Even a cigarette, which I wanted to smoke to calm me down, gave me insane anxiety.. Quit weed for a while but attacks stayed, multiple times a day, I couldn't leave the house, I tried things like jogging but running for 10 second gave me such insane chest pains I just couldn't even stand up straight anymore. I basically had feeling of numb face 24/7 and my heart, arm and and shoulder would hurt so bad almost 24/7. However heart tests showed me being completely healthy.. over and over again.
Fast forward 8 months it's a lot better now but I talked a lot with my doctor and he recommended me to take some benzo for a while, since I can't sleep or relax and it's really annoying (I already do therapy, yoga etc.)
I do not want a very addictive benzo since I'm hooked pretty fast but I'd like one that combines well with weed, I don't smoke often now but with benzo's its really relaxing and working 90 hours a week I just.. need that moment from time to time. I already gave up cigarettes and smoking, bought a vaporizer and just use a liittle bit from time to time, I don't use anything else except GHB the past weeks, which I won't do while on benzo's.
My main goal is to be more calm throughout the day (I'm often very shaky for nothing, can't stand still in places, insane rapid heartbeat by the slightest movements etc.) and no more racing thoughts while in bed. I have some mental stuff too but I'm battling that sober pretty good already. Any recommendations?
I smoke weed daily for 10 years. Heavy stress for the last 4 years combined with depression but I kept smoking which made it worse.
My life made a u turn at 1 january and life was a lot better. And there 1 fucking month later I got a major panic attack, which I never had before or even heard of. And there started my panic attacks. They were worse then all the depression and suicidal thoughts I had all those years. I'd get them out of nowhere but also when smoking weed, less then 0.1 gram would give me a racing heart for 5+ hours, it was really annoying. Even a cigarette, which I wanted to smoke to calm me down, gave me insane anxiety.. Quit weed for a while but attacks stayed, multiple times a day, I couldn't leave the house, I tried things like jogging but running for 10 second gave me such insane chest pains I just couldn't even stand up straight anymore. I basically had feeling of numb face 24/7 and my heart, arm and and shoulder would hurt so bad almost 24/7. However heart tests showed me being completely healthy.. over and over again.
Fast forward 8 months it's a lot better now but I talked a lot with my doctor and he recommended me to take some benzo for a while, since I can't sleep or relax and it's really annoying (I already do therapy, yoga etc.)
I do not want a very addictive benzo since I'm hooked pretty fast but I'd like one that combines well with weed, I don't smoke often now but with benzo's its really relaxing and working 90 hours a week I just.. need that moment from time to time. I already gave up cigarettes and smoking, bought a vaporizer and just use a liittle bit from time to time, I don't use anything else except GHB the past weeks, which I won't do while on benzo's.
My main goal is to be more calm throughout the day (I'm often very shaky for nothing, can't stand still in places, insane rapid heartbeat by the slightest movements etc.) and no more racing thoughts while in bed. I have some mental stuff too but I'm battling that sober pretty good already. Any recommendations?
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