Just wanna say beforehand I'm taking active steps to try and help with my social anxiety, I'm not just sitting on my ass secluding myself from society and hoping to pop a few xanax and thinking it will instantly cure me and my life will be normal again. I've had this shit now since about 17 and have basically alienated myself from friends and family, can't say I've formed a relationship with a new person since this shit started and the relationships I already had, including family have just become total shit, I usually get anxiety from the slightest things that are just normal everyday things, I'm constantly quite, paranoid about the way people are judging me and just avoid social interaction as much as I can. On the plus side about two month ago after about a year of abusing codeine prescribed after I was jumped and had my leg broken in two places, I quit them and thought fuck this shit I'm not letting this social anxiety shit beat me anymore and I'm gunna live my fucking life, I got a job and have stuck at it now for nearly two month, tried my best to get along with people and be social and as we work away and all stay in the same hotel after work we will go for meals and a drink n shit and rather than avoiding it like I would usually do I've just been forcing myself to just yeah to it and hoping my social anxiety will go away after a time but I can feel myself sinking back into this shit and I feel like it's gunna get too much for me and I'll end up just quitting the shit and I don't wanna let it beat me cos in my own mind this is my last chance to deal with life and if I let it beat me I'm gunna give up completely.
So yeah I am trying to deal with life and social anxiety the best way I can, through facing my fears rather than jus solely abusing some sort of benzo or some shit and hoping everything will be better, but my question is, based on other peoples experiences and knowledge what would be the best benzo or some other sort of drug that would help me deal with this situation temporarily, I don't plan on abusing it and will probably take the odd day here and there without it as to not build up a tolerance and addiction as I know where that shit leads, I just want a little, aid if you like, to help me as I try and deal with this shit and be normal again, I want something that won't just numb me to the shit where I don't care though like the SSRI my shitty clueless fucking doctor keeps prescribing me. No one will probably bother reading this shit as it's long asf but for anyone that does thanks.
So yeah I am trying to deal with life and social anxiety the best way I can, through facing my fears rather than jus solely abusing some sort of benzo or some shit and hoping everything will be better, but my question is, based on other peoples experiences and knowledge what would be the best benzo or some other sort of drug that would help me deal with this situation temporarily, I don't plan on abusing it and will probably take the odd day here and there without it as to not build up a tolerance and addiction as I know where that shit leads, I just want a little, aid if you like, to help me as I try and deal with this shit and be normal again, I want something that won't just numb me to the shit where I don't care though like the SSRI my shitty clueless fucking doctor keeps prescribing me. No one will probably bother reading this shit as it's long asf but for anyone that does thanks.