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Benzo nerd

anal_greed

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Hello everyone! I'm a long time reader and new member from the UK.

Years ago a doc put me on diazepam and he continued prescribing it for about 2 years. It really helped my anxiety but obviously I got addicted. I moved to a new city so had to get a new doc and they freaked out about the diazepam. I was cut off, no support, no taper, just left on my own to sort it out. So let's just say I had to acquire diazepam from elsewhere... I'm sure you can fill in the blanks.

Luckily for me my tolerance hasn't increased much over the years and I've really worked to keep my daily use as low as I can. Although sometimes I treat myself to a really chilled weekend ;-) But in that time I've encountered all kinds of benzos. Some where just chalk, others fakes with something in (I use a testing service), and others were proper pharma. I find the whole process of checking out different benzos from different places really interesting. As a scientist by profession I've read medical literature about benzos. I also became a bit of a snob about only using the best benzos. You might almost describe me as a collector :LOL:

I designed a very slow taper for myself, based on the work of Prof Heather Ashton, but then the pandemic happened. I was really paranoid about COVID - not so much about me, but passing it on to my elderly parents (and my Dad died of it early this year). So not really the time to taper. The world needs to calm down a bit!

Other stuff, I've experimented with other drugs at times. I had a coke addiction for a while and at another point was taking dangerous amounts of tramadol. I managed to stop both on my own, so dodged a bullet there.:LOL:

Anyway, looking forward to meeting other "collectors" and nerds in this forum. :geek:
 
Years ago a doc put me on diazepam and he continued prescribing it for about 2 years. It really helped my anxiety but obviously I got addicted. I moved to a new city so had to get a new doc and they freaked out about the diazepam. I was cut off, no support, no taper, just left on my own to sort it out.
Hey welcome to BL. I have a feeling your situation will help some others.

Not a collector but just wanted to say, I really wish we would have some people with money who have had doctors just cut them off from benzos to sue and take their doctors to court for untold suffering. I think that would shake up the ignorance in the medical field and force a doctor to be an actual doctor and not an a-hole. But most don't have the time and money to do that.

If anyone in BL ever wins a lottery or gets a windfall lets open a foundation that does this. Enough of the ignorance by our own doctors. (hey we can dream)
 
Hey welcome to BL. I have a feeling your situation will help some others.

Not a collector but just wanted to say, I really wish we would have some people with money who have had doctors just cut them off from benzos to sue and take their doctors to court for untold suffering. I think that would shake up the ignorance in the medical field and force a doctor to be an actual doctor and not an a-hole. But most don't have the time and money to do that.

If anyone in BL ever wins a lottery or gets a windfall lets open a foundation that does this. Enough of the ignorance by our own doctors. (hey we can dream)

Hey @JackARoe good to meet you. That's a good point. I could have died - maybe unlikely since I was on a low dose. But I was in a new city, starting a new job, hardly an ideal time to go to ER etc.

I'm angry that the doc basically forced me to break the law by buying it myself. I've got a good plug now and get everything tested, but at first it was risky (especially in a new city where I had no connections).

I promise that if I ever win the lottery I'll sue that doc!
 
If the Dr. won't help you, then you know it's time for a different Dr..
 
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