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Benzo(and a few other) addiction in need of advice

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hashishashish

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Hi this is my first post, I'd be very grateful for any advice you could give me. Basically addicted to valium, been on and off for about 8 months now I wouldnt say I abuse it as i only take 20mg a day and hardly feel it i've also quit cold turkey everytime and seziures and all. Although I recently over the past 2 weeks have been drinking alot, excessively on the weekends and about a beer 7/8% on week days.
I'm also prescribed 15mg of mirtzapine a day, for the past 5days in been using 25mg of quetiapine a night as well, I also occasionally go on ketamine binges.
I basically have no friends people dont really talk to me unless they want benzos, this is quite problematic because im 19 and it doesnt help me depression at all.
I also live with a fair abusive landlord who is an alcoholic and can get very violent. I'm in the uk and since the squatting laws have changed i basically have nowhere else to go.
It feels like a deadend and if this is what my lifes going to be like its not worth living, i see other people my age going to uni and having fun(without drugs) which i can do.
I do fire performance on a professional level but have no one to spin with so i hardly ever do it anymore.
I'm know for just getting to wasted on drugs. I dont know what to do to make the situation better, but i also feel like a dick complaining when there are others with much worse situations than mine.
Any advice would be very appreciated thank you x
 
Hi hashishashish welcome to bluelight. At such a young age there are many things you can still do to improve your life. Firstly find another place yoy can stay for a while like a family member or a friend? I would say it is much better to stay with a familt nember so you can save up money to go to school and work part time after that. I think that you should continue with the fire performance and find someone to spin with or engage in other types of activities that you can take your mind off drugs. Thid would also help with yur depression. The more you occupy your mind with some productivity the more you will feel better.
 
Thank you for the reply, I'm working on my housing situation with the counsel. My family aren't very good to help the situation they generally make things worse. But i'll try to find stuff to occupy my time more.
 
Also could someone shed some light on my alcohol use with benzos because i've been addicted to benzos heavily but alcohol has never been a problem before i know the both have GABA and CNS effect but so you think if i upped my benzo dosage to what it was before ranged from 10mg a day to 80mg randomly with pretty horrible withdrawals, and I basically lost all my memory atm im taking b-vitamins and choline are there any other supplements I can take to keep my cognitive abiltues and memory intact.
Thanks this forum is a life saver x
 
Op you shouldn't mix benzos with alcohol and if you are going to up your dosage you should consult a doctor for that.

I have read that ginko biloba helps with memory enhancement so you can try if this will work for you.
 
ahhh I've consulted my doctor even after I was having seizures and they did nothing, to be honest people i know come to me for advices because the uk doctors in cites are a hit and miss some care some don't.
I was thinking of going up to 30/40mg a day and quitting alcohol. Thanks for the previous posted though I took it all into account and had a much better day/
Thank you x
 
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