okay, long time reader, first time poster so please move this if it is not in the right location!
I have done my fair share of Benzedrex over the years, if I had to really count I'd probably say 10-12 times not including the binge I am currently on which is what I am here to talk about. I have always had good experiences with it, mainly using it to write papers for classes, and it has always provided that extra focus I was looking for. Well these past two weeks have been hell with finals and assignments so I have to say this is the most I have ever done at one time for this long.
Last week, I took 4, 2 a day spaced 8-12 hours apart. I have always used the lemon extract method usually with a little CocaCola as well. Last week everything was good. This week not so much. Last Thursday was the last day I took an inhaler and then did not redose until Monday. So I would say I had a long enough break that this week would be considered a new binge. On Monday night I took one my normal way, it ran its course, I even slept a little, redosed with one inhaler on Tuesday afternoon but didn't feel it very strongly. Decided to sleep that night. Wednesday, I made my concoction but this time I used two inhalers, I let it sit for awhile and then gulped it down-- except this time I was not able to keep that nasty ass taste down and I ended up spitting a little back up. I would say I got at least half though, so I wasn't sure if this meant I wasn't going to feel it very much again or what. Well I felt it all right. My heart was racing, my skin blotchy (it happens on these), and I was super shaky. I decided to not dose again that night and ended up sleeping for like four hours and went to take a final at 8am on Friday.
Now this is where negative effects started to really happen. First off, I could hardly walk down the stairs like at all!, then while sitting for my test I began excessively sweating and it took everything in me not to throw up right there. I could hardly write because my hands were shaking so bad. I am sure I looked I was on drugs as the sweat poured down my face. So I walked back to car after test, which was not easy and sat there till I thought I was okay to drive home. Got home and laid down, 'slept' for maybe 3 hours, then got up and went to store to pick up two more inhalers. I felt shitty but I am still working on a big paper so I thought it best to redose. This time I said fuck no to that lavender taste and decided to cut up the cotton and stuff it in to two gelcaps. I took them after eating a small lunch. Well, I almost instantly started sweating (which is not too abnormal when first coming up on these), but then my mouth started watering and I could taste it, and BAM- projectile vomit all over myself and bed! Crawled to the bathroom and continued to vomit. Finally stopped and decided to try and shower to clean myself off. I just sat in the bathtub with the water running over me for a good while till strong enough to get up and wash off and then I just went and laid in bed for a good 30 minutes before I could even attempt to clean everything up.
This was the first time Benzedrex had ever made me sick like that, and my stomach felt weird the rest of the night but I didn't throw up again. I did feel it working, but there was no way I could have got any schoolwork done so I just smoked and let myself go to sleep. I woke up this morning, and I actually was feeling okay, better than I thought I would be. So I decided to take the last inhaler I had around noon, and of course went back to the trusty lemon extract method. I will NEVER eat the cotton again, even in a gelcap. NOPE! The thought of plugging crossed my mind, but figured it was too acidic. Idk though, I'd almost rather my asshole burn for a minute than that fucking taste. UGH.
Before this I noticed I was still very weak in my legs and shaky everywhere and sore. Oh and I had a BM. Now this is important because, I am currently in the process of trying to get off opiates, so this was literally the first time I had gone to the bathroom in at least a week. I have not done any "hard" opiates for almost two weeks, but the first week off I used suboxene, and the second week I used basically anything and everything I had that had some kind of opiate in it, such as a big ol whopping waste of 10 tylenol 3s, Lol. SO, I pretty much went straight to using the benzedrex when I had nothing left. Today makes day three of officially no opiates in my system.
Okay back to today's inhaler, I ate a little something and then squeezed the cotton out and I swear I stared at the cup for a long ass time mentally preparing myself. That taste. OMG. The thought of lavender being "calming" for people makes me laugh, I will always gag every time I smell it now. Well, I finally did it and I kept it down. I went back to my paper and started getting sleepy?? which has never happened, and then I had another BM. (two in a day? it's a miracle Lol). Currently, I am still somewhat feeling it still. I at least am up typing away (not on my paper though lol sigh), and I haven't decided if I should take another dose or what now. My head is beginning to hurt though.
Basically, what I really want to know is do you think I am experiencing opiate withdrawals or is this whole shaky sweaty business just the stimulant comedowns? I am feeling muscle aches, but my heart has stopped beating fast and I seem to not be in too bad of a mood. Also, do you think I got sick from eating the cotton or just because I had already dosed several times the past couple days? I am not too sure how much of an advocate I'll be now for Benzedrex going forward. Lol. But, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do to get shit done. Blah. Would much appreciate anyone's thoughts on this oh so lovely experience of mine...