Sobrietysucks
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Recently my both my parents are suffering from terminal illness and reminding me how:
1.one day they will be gone (death) and I am the cause of all their worry/stress/problems
2. how my siblings are successful, they will be alright while I won't
My reaction? I could feel bad.... But i don't care. I never had much empathy growing up. I have no remorse for my actions. Why you ask?
1. I never asked to be born
2. they always wanted me to be someone im not, so now I resent them for it.
3. they never let me be myself, shot down any suggestions I made and redirected me to #2,
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If you can train yourself to think like this, you can switch off the "human" part of the brain too. Drugs greatly facilites this process. It can diminish anxiety, or any undesirable aspect of one's self.
1.Is this post a rambling of a maniacal man (high on uppers)?
2 or am I getting somewhere with this? I believe that no one is born bad but for some it may be the easier path? A good example may be a fictional character Heisenburg from the tv Show Breaking Bad.
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Recently my both my parents are suffering from terminal illness and reminding me how:
1.one day they will be gone (death) and I am the cause of all their worry/stress/problems
2. how my siblings are successful, they will be alright while I won't
My reaction? I could feel bad.... But i don't care. I never had much empathy growing up. I have no remorse for my actions. Why you ask?
1. I never asked to be born
2. they always wanted me to be someone im not, so now I resent them for it.
3. they never let me be myself, shot down any suggestions I made and redirected me to #2,
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If you can train yourself to think like this, you can switch off the "human" part of the brain too. Drugs greatly facilites this process. It can diminish anxiety, or any undesirable aspect of one's self.
1.Is this post a rambling of a maniacal man (high on uppers)?
2 or am I getting somewhere with this? I believe that no one is born bad but for some it may be the easier path? A good example may be a fictional character Heisenburg from the tv Show Breaking Bad.
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