Pretty_Diamonds
Bluelight Crew
Episodes?
Lack of self-control. Pushing away boyfriend of 5 years. Running away. Getting into fights with gay guys? Clinging onto to older men.
No memory of ANYTHING.
Is this a look into my psyche? I wasn't like this before. Although, I AM currently unemployed, not in school, not on good terms with friends/family, and having major financial problems. So... in a bit of a slump. >.> Otherwise relationship with boyfriend is good. I also just came off of a pretty major 6 month drug binge (nitrous, opiates, benzos, and alcohol). Sober-ish now, trying to get back on my feet.
I guess I'm just wondering, why..? and although I want to see a psychologist, I get major anxiety in regards to driving and doctors. >.<
Lack of self-control. Pushing away boyfriend of 5 years. Running away. Getting into fights with gay guys? Clinging onto to older men.
No memory of ANYTHING.
Is this a look into my psyche? I wasn't like this before. Although, I AM currently unemployed, not in school, not on good terms with friends/family, and having major financial problems. So... in a bit of a slump. >.> Otherwise relationship with boyfriend is good. I also just came off of a pretty major 6 month drug binge (nitrous, opiates, benzos, and alcohol). Sober-ish now, trying to get back on my feet.
I guess I'm just wondering, why..? and although I want to see a psychologist, I get major anxiety in regards to driving and doctors. >.<
