Before I sleep tonight

[NeWBoRN]

Before I sleep tonight,
A thought goes out to you,
my shining light through
every raincloud
my every waking thought.
Before I go to sleep tonight,
I prepare myself to dream of you,
I prepare myself to wake again,
and travel home to you.
My bed's to big for the both of us,
but too small for me alone,
i'm incomplete every time I sleep,
If only I could dream with you - hear you sleep on the phone.
Before when I was down,
you couldn't see what I needed,
and now I smile at you,
you smile back,
and eternity freezes.
Before I go to sleep tonight,
I lie and think of you in your dreamworld,
in hope that I can meet you there,
and tell you for the first time what you mean to me.
You are my friend,
you are my world,
And I met you on a train traveling to the same destination,
I hope as life goes on,
we still travel together.
I love you like no other,
but if I push these words out,
will it shock you that I love you,
and turn and run.
You know me so well,
but at times I don't know you at all,
I've never been one to read the signs,
and never one to read them right.
So before I go to sleep tonight,
I lie awake,
but you are sleeping,
you are dreaming,
and so might I be,
If I could read your thoughts,
I wouldn't have to put our friendship on the line,
but if I never tell you how I feel,
I'm wasting time.
Through both our passed failed relationships,
weve shared in one anothers pain,
but who will be my sunshine,
if I open my mouth and make it rain.
If ever one day we are together,
and you read these words I write,
just know that all I ever wanted,
Was to go to sleep beside you tonight.
Question to all who read this""
If you are in love with one of your best friends and they don't know (or they may know but I don't know if they know) What the hell do you do???
I don't want to waste what we have, but I can't deny strong feelings...............
"Until Sally I was never happy, I needed so much more. Rainclouds oh, they used to chase me, down they would pour. Join my tears. Allign my fears. Sent to me from heaven, Sally Cinnamon you're my world" - Sally Cinnamon - TSR

 

[Taliana]

Newborn: I cannot stress ENOUGH how strongly i feel about this topic.
Ive recently been in exactly the same position, and for me it didnt work out. I was completely head over heels with one of my really good male friends,and like you, didn't know how to tell him because i was afraid a) he didnt feel the same (because i seriously didn't know how to read his signals), and b) i was scared it would hurt our friendship. Anyway, so i liked him for a very fucking long time WITHOUT letting anyone or him know, and i left it too long.
I found out that he had liked me all that time aswell, but like me, was too scared to say anything. I guess he just thought i wouldnt of thought of him like that, so he met someone, and is now with her
I told him a few weeks ago that i liked him... and he told me basically that he liked me, but was infatuated with this other girl.
Bad timing on my part, luckily we are still friends, but theres that barrier there now.
So my suggestion, tell him... its so much more painful when it happens that way. Ive moved on, (tho ill still always want him...) and it took me telling him i liked him to actually do it.
If you do a search on me in this forum, from about july on, there are poems ive written about him and the progress sort of thing
good luck!!!!

 

[NeWBoRN]

Thanks....
I think I might just tell "her"
I take it I write like a girl then!!!!
:D

 

[silverwheel]

empathy/sympathy coming your way...
I too would recommend putting things in the open. I am currently dating the girl that had been the best friend for a few years now. When we started hanging out again this year at school the dynamic changed...and it completely surprised me when I found out it was mutual (and it most likely would never have been said were we not both a bit tipsy).
It's frightening because it's hard to go back once it's been introduced, but I think we're both glad we did it. Put it in the open-it does no good in the shadow