I know that sounds like typical junkie talk but I had a realization this week about what I want from life. One is a career and the other is a kid. I don't want to get married though. I looked into adoption and it seems right for me. There are even a few kids that would do best if they were raised by a single guy like me. Anyways, if presented with the opportunity to further my career and/or become a dad, I could and would stop my drug use and it would be no problem. I guess that means I am not addicted.