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Been quit since the death of opana

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Droppersneck

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Its been 3 weeks or so and I feel great. Longest quit in 3 years. Opana was the only thing that could do it for me and really tempt me. I turn down roxi and anything less all the time. If I did just one 30 would I be thrown back to shitty depression for 2 weeks or would I be okay. I know its subjective, but due to the price/effectivness of roxi I am not worried about coming back for more at all at this point. Advice? :?
 
You already know the answer to the question that you're asking, I feel..

Stay away, and enjoy your renewed life. :)
 
OP, it takes several months of clean time for your brains neurochemistry to adjust back to normal operations sans the opiates, Chipping may not set you back all the way, but by doing it you are making it harder/more drawn out for your brain to resume normal production of chemicals like dopamine.

I discovered that if I was depressed several weeks after I quit using that the depression may be an underlying symptom of why I use not because I use.

Being prescribed an anti-depressant before I went to rehab last year made my detox and subsequent months of clean time much more enjoyable. Consider talking to your doctor if you depression persists.
 
Thank you and you guys are right. I didnt give in but I built myself up mentally today and its worrying me. Tried all antidepressants and none of them work in fact just weened off wellbutrin at the same time as opana/subs. Now I am weening myself off ambien. And I have started a slow taper off xanies and valiums. Also considerable slowed down drinking and smoke maybe 1 cig a week in recent weeks. I feel great bu the temptation is still there. sux. I always got my glock though lol
 
Droppersneck said:
Its been 3 weeks or so and I feel great. Longest quit in 3 years. Opana was the only thing that could do it for me and really tempt me. I turn down roxi and anything less all the time. If I did just one 30 would I be thrown back to shitty depression for 2 weeks or would I be okay. I know its subjective, but due to the price/effectivness of roxi I am not worried about coming back for more at all at this point. Advice? :?
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1 will not be enough. I guarantee you that. You are going to want to do another one later.. or decide instad of 1 pill youll get high one day. Then you'll decide one week.

Come on man.. your not new to the game..that is the addict in you trying to rationalize relapse/using. Do you realistically think you can do just one pill? And if so, what is the point? If you cfan really just do one pill why do it at all? If you have success.. whats to stop you from deciding to use one more a few weeks from now? Be realistic.. there is no reason to use 'one' pill.
 
I am not a big fan of 'cold turkey', but considering that you already managed to be off that long, I wouldnt fuck it up.

You are not 'out of the woods' yet. If you have been able to go 3 weeks and function then just be thankful that you were able to. Some are not so lucky.

Smoke some weed. The nice thing about benzos and weed is that you dont get anxiety attacks. Weed never got anyone strung out like an opiate addiction, and its rather pleasant with a MILD dose of benzos.

You dont want a benzo addiction though. Its the only addiction that is arguably WORSE than an opiate addiction. It will make you have agoraphobia. Dont use the benzos as an opiate replacement, only use it to stave of panic attacks.

Some L-Dopa and 5HTP might help replenish your dopamine and serotonin, mostly dopamine. Some OTC supplement Nootropics might clear up your head and increase motivation. Chamomile in heavy brews with milk and honey can stave off mild WDs partially.

Exercise, if you have the energy for it, increases dopamine and endorphins. If you dont have the energy, talk to your doctor.
 
Hi Droppersneck, congratulations on being clean for 3 weeks, that is fantastic!

You have been given some good advice in this thread so far. It is early days; I think you need to be gentle with yourself. Were you feeling down/depressed before you started taking opioids? If so, the opioids will have acted as a self-medication, covering it up, but now you will not only be dealing with getting clean, but the depression too. If it came on afterwards then it is likely it is all linked to quitting - depression (or at least low mood) are pretty common amongst opioid addicts in the early days.

There are simple things you can do which - although small in themselves - might add up to something bigger. As mentioned above, exercise is excellent - treat your body well, get those endorphins pumping and have some time out when you don't have to think the same thoughts over and over. Eating healthily is another good one. If your body is in good shape it helps sort your head out too I think. I see you are already on the ball in terms of supplements etc :) definitely be wary of benzos - too easy to swap one addiction for another., and quitting benzos is really tough and can be dangerous I would stay well away.

Do you have any hobbies (hate that word) or fun activites/passtimes? If not, how about picking a new one? It's really important to have enjoyable things in your life other than drugs. How about support from friends and family?

If you do feel that you are depressed then seeing a doctor might be a good idea, although it is important to make sure it is not a temporary thing brought on by your drug use/quitting before a doctor starts you on medication - the doc should be able to talk to you about this.

From your post it sounds like kicking the oxycodone isn't your main probolem it is your low mood, but I still think it would be very beneficial to go and see a drugs counsellor (if you haven't already). There are other forms of therapy too - it is worth looking around if you think it might help you.

Don't beat yourself up if it feels like you are not making good progress. You have to shift your goalposts somewhat, and take baby steps rather than rushing and it going wrong. It's hard to tell how we are from inside our heads as welll.

I am going to send this over to The Dark Side forum - I'm sure you are familiar with it, but I think you will get the best advice there - full of compassionate and wise people :)

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