Becareful of what u wish for....

[unicorn83]

as a kid i wished for more friends, to be the most popular kid in school,
i was but only for my wealth, looks, and prestige.
as i grew up i wished for a boyfriend
and that's what i got an abusive one.
i grew older and wished my mom would let me party more often
she did,
i became an alcoholic.
later on i wished id be told that i'm special,
i was told, but just to get me into bed.
i wished everyone would leave me alone, and let me have my own life,
they did,
i was left to live alone for a year, with no support what so ever.
i wished i could be different,
i became i became mentally ill, and tried to commit suicide.
i wished i could do more drugs,
i did and ended up in rehab.
i wished id fall in love with someone who truely loves me,
i did,
but we're in two different continents where it could never work out.
what im trying to say is becareful what you wish for as u might not get what u really want.

 

[apocalyptic vendetta]

that gave me the chills...
hope everything is ok.

 

[harraser]

......sad but true
*hugs*

 

[Hemlock]

Reasonably well written. But I think the sentiment is more powerful than the form. The sentiment, the pain, the exasperation, is very touching. Something most everyone goes through, though not necessarily to the degree that you share here.
This strikes me as someone for whom the grass is always greener over there - rather than someone who can appreciate what is in their hand at the time. I assume this is your personal, and true, revelantion to us, and as such I do not mean to talk down to you. I know such a life can be painful and hard. I just know that as I passed out of that regretting phase into an acceptance state of mind, I found the world I was in was actually pretty good, I didn't need to wish for things - what I wanted was already within reach.
[ 06 February 2002: Message edited by: Hemlock ]