I had a horrible dream the other night......I couldn't stop thinkin about it so I did a creative twist on it and wrote it down.....
I woke up to pounding on the door.
It was you.
You left your key here again.
I glanced at the clock.
3 a.m.
I knew you'd be drunk.
You pounded and yelled my name
Through the window.
I took a deep breath,
Held it,
Let it out slow.
It was going to be a long night.
I crawled out of bed,
Walked to the door,
Opened it and you stumbled through.
I locked the door behind you,
Walked towards the bedroom.
You were sitting on the edge of the bed.
You looked so upset.
I closed my eyes,
Prayed you wouldn't yell.
I asked how your night was
As I crawled back under the sheets.
You told me to shut up.
The words hurt but still I said
"I love you. Goodnight."
You reached across the bed;
The first slap stung.
I was shocked.
You really hit me this time.
You scooted closer to me,
Grabbed my arm,
Pulled me closer towards you.
I tried to yank my arm,
But your grip was too strong.
"You're not getting away this time"
You snarled at me.
That little sneer
I once found so endearing, so adorable,
Now brought terror to my eyes.
It was so different this time.
Your eyes crackled with anger.
I choked out a breath
As tears quickly filled up my eyes.
"You don't have to do this"
I pleaded.
You took my arm and pushed me hard,
I slammed against the wall.
I tried to curl up in the corner,
Put my head between my knees.
You smacked the back of my head,
Not even paying attention to my sobs,
My cries.
"You're just drunk, just go to sleep"
I repeated over and over.
The next hit was harder,
Above my right eye.
You just wouldn't stop;
One hand holding my arms down,
The other hitting my face.
I struggled to get out of bed
But you pulled my arm,
Pulled even at my hair,
Back to the bed
Tears streaming down my face.
I never though you'd go this far;
Never thought you'd take it to this place,
This dark, angry place.
You slammed me against the wall again.
I hit my head hard.
You laughed,
Hit me in the mouth.
I tasted blood.
I was so tired.
"Please. Stop."
I begged, breathing hard breaths.
You grabbed my arms once more,
Stopped,
Finally looked me square in the eyes,
Saw the fear in them.
I closed my eyelids,
Hearing just heavy breathing.
Your grip let up
And you pulled me to your chest,
Enveloped me in your arms.
You rubbed my back
And the back of my head,
Ran your fingers through my knotted hair.
I didn't try to squirm away.
I just let you hold me close.
It was like the anger just slowly started to drain away from you.
Tears continued to roll silently down my cheeks.
You pulled me away long enough
To kiss me on the forehead,
Then you pulled me close to you again.
You whispered in my ear
"I love you"
I choked back another sob
And you laid back on the pillow,
Pulling me down with you.
You put my head on your chest
And we fell asleep.
Tomorrow is a new day....
~Jamie
I woke up to pounding on the door.
It was you.
You left your key here again.
I glanced at the clock.
3 a.m.
I knew you'd be drunk.
You pounded and yelled my name
Through the window.
I took a deep breath,
Held it,
Let it out slow.
It was going to be a long night.
I crawled out of bed,
Walked to the door,
Opened it and you stumbled through.
I locked the door behind you,
Walked towards the bedroom.
You were sitting on the edge of the bed.
You looked so upset.
I closed my eyes,
Prayed you wouldn't yell.
I asked how your night was
As I crawled back under the sheets.
You told me to shut up.
The words hurt but still I said
"I love you. Goodnight."
You reached across the bed;
The first slap stung.
I was shocked.
You really hit me this time.
You scooted closer to me,
Grabbed my arm,
Pulled me closer towards you.
I tried to yank my arm,
But your grip was too strong.
"You're not getting away this time"
You snarled at me.
That little sneer
I once found so endearing, so adorable,
Now brought terror to my eyes.
It was so different this time.
Your eyes crackled with anger.
I choked out a breath
As tears quickly filled up my eyes.
"You don't have to do this"
I pleaded.
You took my arm and pushed me hard,
I slammed against the wall.
I tried to curl up in the corner,
Put my head between my knees.
You smacked the back of my head,
Not even paying attention to my sobs,
My cries.
"You're just drunk, just go to sleep"
I repeated over and over.
The next hit was harder,
Above my right eye.
You just wouldn't stop;
One hand holding my arms down,
The other hitting my face.
I struggled to get out of bed
But you pulled my arm,
Pulled even at my hair,
Back to the bed
Tears streaming down my face.
I never though you'd go this far;
Never thought you'd take it to this place,
This dark, angry place.
You slammed me against the wall again.
I hit my head hard.
You laughed,
Hit me in the mouth.
I tasted blood.
I was so tired.
"Please. Stop."
I begged, breathing hard breaths.
You grabbed my arms once more,
Stopped,
Finally looked me square in the eyes,
Saw the fear in them.
I closed my eyelids,
Hearing just heavy breathing.
Your grip let up
And you pulled me to your chest,
Enveloped me in your arms.
You rubbed my back
And the back of my head,
Ran your fingers through my knotted hair.
I didn't try to squirm away.
I just let you hold me close.
It was like the anger just slowly started to drain away from you.
Tears continued to roll silently down my cheeks.
You pulled me away long enough
To kiss me on the forehead,
Then you pulled me close to you again.
You whispered in my ear
"I love you"
I choked back another sob
And you laid back on the pillow,
Pulling me down with you.
You put my head on your chest
And we fell asleep.
Tomorrow is a new day....
~Jamie
