Be my father

[Jabberwocky]

I remember when you use to wrap me in your arms and tell me that you loved me. Surrounded me, protecting me from anything life had to offer. I could feel your love flow over me like a protective blanket of hope. I felt safe. Loved. Wanted. Why did it have to end? I can’t see your face anymore long since blurred by hate. I wish my fantasy dreams of lifelong innocence and happy endings were true. I wish you never left me, cold, alone in a world with out you.
Mistakes are a sign of weakness you use to tell me as a child; I promise I wont make any if you’ll stay. Just for one more night. I’ll make you proud this time I promise. All that I ever wanted from you was a kind word an embrace, a chance at being your son. My heart calls you but you don’t return it, leaving it standing in an answering machine purgatory. So now I am the adult and you the child, feeble old, needing my protection. So I kiss you tonight, dear son and whisper things about life, love, and protection. I tuck you in tonight, dear son wrapping my blanket of hope around you one final time. I leave to face the cold alone once more. I cry, hoping you know all that I had hoped for, all that I wanted to do, all that you would never let me.
-phil-
[This message has been edited by liquidphil1 (edited 14 November 2001).]

 

[Mellabopper]

*speechless*
intense!
this is probably one of your best works i've read...

Mella

 

[BoNBoNBoNBoNBoN1]

How about a friend?
I don't have all the words to comfort you, and I can't reach out and give you a hug right now... but you know I'm your friend. It's good to see you "dealing" with things that are bothering you, and that is enough to be proud of.

I miss you Phil... and even though I'm half a world away, I'm here for you.

~Bon

 

[~*JungleFaerie*~]

wow phil
this is truely a beautiful piece, coming from such a truely beautiful soul. i wish you all of the love and inner peace that the world has to offer, because i know that you deserve it more than anyone. i wish that i could stretch through these wires and across this vast space and give you all the hugs and love and protection that you need. always remember that im here for you, just as you have been for me these past few weeks.
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[Sweetpea]

YOU will be a good father.

 

[plazma]

bloody brilliant!

*blinks* can't say anything else... i'll have to think some more about it!
-plaz out-
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[fizzygirl]

that is so beautiful and sad....and i so agree with sweetpea

 

[Haza]

wow...

 

[poezante]

You're wonderful phil and you will be an excellent dad.

 

[femmme fatal]

i never do know what to say to beautiful yet painful pieces like that...
so i guess i'll just say: I love you phil.
aj the femme

 

[sunEdltye]

Usually when i meet people it takes me about 5 visits to become totally comfortable with them, with phil, it only took 2. theres a reason why i drove 400 miles to meet you again phil and that reason is why so many people love you. the reason isnt something i can put into words, but it is something that you will always have with you and pass on to everyone you touch.
Evan

 

[alykitty]

^
^Right on, Evan...
Phil, you are such a beautiful soul with so much inside you..I can't be your father but I love that I'm your friend...
Very well written, my dear

{{MUAH}}

 

[cherub]

i can't say wonderful work, cause this is too deep just to be wonderful phil. You put alot in it to share and release some of what you feel out. So happy you could share. I am personally touched.

 

[Dagny]

And no matter what you do, and how smart you are, and how much you think about it, you still question yourself... and you still miss your dad, and the wondering is the worst sometimes, and the wishing is the worst sometimes... and then you put those feelings away when you look around you and you decide to hold on to the love you DO have in your life, and a lot of the time the memories can be enough... and when they're not, dear phil, you come up with this. You make me cry and you make me smile at the same time... thank you. For saying it "out loud"... you help me more than I can say. Love you sweetheart, if you ever need to stop being strong for a minute or a day or a year, you let me know. Love you darlin.
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