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Okay, I am going to be a needy bitch and quote my own self here to see if anyone has any feedback for me. Sorry to "bump" my own post, but I really want some advice before I go back to my doc, want to have my shit in order....thanks, loves


Hey y'all, hope a good day was had by all....went boating to an amazing island myself, water was as clear blue as the carribean. Getting good at driving the boat myself. Ok, need advice from my trusty friends here. I want to taper off my morphine ER.

Currently take 60 mgs twice a day. My doc proposed a schedule that seemed excruciatingly slow. Here is what I think I will propose:

Start with 30 mgs x three a day.....this way if the cut in dose sends me into too bad a withdraw I will have a midday dose to pull me through

Then, 30 mgs x twice a day

Switch to 15 mgs x three times a day

15 mgs x twice a day

Not sure about jumping off, though...should I go to 15 mgs x one a day, or cut in half and do 7.5 twice a day? I am scared if I go to a one a day dosing it will fuck me over..if I stick with twice a day, I can just get the dose smaller and smaller until it becomes a nonissue. Or am I just being a pussy and need to jump off and if I withdraw, so what.
Also, doesnt it seem like a good idea to go to three times a day every time I go down a step? I do have very legitimate pain, plus I am a mom, I can't afford to have serious withdrawal symptoms.

Also, I have already made a huge jump in my oxy consumption ( not my choice but whatever ) and have gone from 30 mgs x five a day to 10 mgs x twice a day and that has been fine. I plan to stay on this small bit of oxy I think in case things get unbearable pain wise but I may need to jump off the as well. My goals are to be non opiate dependent, be able to achieve appreciable pain relief without having to take heroic doses ( like 180 mgs of oxy at a time) and finally, to get knocked up...

Sorry this is so long, what does you guise think about this here plan? And also, how long for each step? My doc thought a month but I think two weeks would be fine.....?????
 
^ Can I join in too pls? :D

BabyG, that's fantastic news, good luck getting your kids back <3

How are you today Token, Manicmama? Loving the lady-vibe (lol that sounds like a sex toy) in here atm :)

I'm sure everyone was waiting for you effie;)

I'm f'ing great...so is life...
full of awesomeness...

lady vibe..gotta get one of those...;)

how are you?

token
 
Haha, thanks Beachcat bébé ;)

How's BDD doing today? Woke up and already baked, lol.
 
You are welcome, my love. You are really very handsome. Post more pics of your lovely face, please. And other parts of you if you are so inclined. Jealous of your bakedness.... Coming off of opies sucks!

I could not sleep last night so watched almost all of season one of Mad Men....getting ready to watch some more, that show is addicting!


Oh and Lou, ps now I have a crush on you! Tripsy, you are cute, too, I don't think I have ever seen your face before....
 
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Hello BDD!
 
Hey token :) effie :)

Aye am good ta - don't u love it wen ya react like a grown up 2 a situation that wud av certainly sent u in2 'he goaded me officer' territory a few months back?

Operation Fri! Only 20 mins, but it's under general - got a funny feelin I'll b kept in - me n general anasthetic don't get on, n I'm a little worried the lithium will only make the chances of my stomach linin venturin up n out higher.
Fingers crossed I'm jst doin my fave pastime - worryin about nothin!

Hope everyones ok tonight!
 
Hi mm...:) yeah..grown up is good...
harder for some than others though.

wow..lou has fans everywhere now..who knew?
also apparently a new stalker..hehe BC. hi to you as well;)

lmao @ BG..so glad you're back<3

TC--just <3..that's it.

~token
 
I wasn't gonna post this. Then thought maybe I should post as a guest. But I trust you guys.. most lol ;)
Anyway, I'm tapering off benzos real fast. 100-150 mg a day habit of diazepam cut to 5 mg BID with only 2 weeks to go (out of 5-6 weeks) bc I'm scared if I tell my dr the truth my probation officer will violate me for using above my dosage.
As you can imagine I'm havin wd symptoms. The gabapentin helps and smokin legal weeds. But one wd symptom? is scarin me.. I am idealizing homicidal thoughts. I HONESTLY believed I wouldn't act on them, I'm just so pissed off at the injustices I keep gettin. I actually tried turnin an "abandoned" fawcet like thing hopin the building would blow.. That it would be a gas line.. I know I need help but how? without getin locked up.
Anyway, are these thoughts (and unfortunately behavior) a "normal" wd symptom?
I'm scared to tell anyone IRL bc I don't need locked up..
Thanks guys!
 
That is an incredibly dangerous drop in dosage.

I honestly do not know how to proceed due to your parole officer.

I think that your best bet is aquiring diazepam through other means and doing a safer taper. As you are already prescribed diazepam you aren't going to fail a drug test.
 
That is an incredibly dangerous drop in dosage.

I honestly do not know how to proceed due to your parole officer.

I think that your best bet is aquiring diazepam through other means and doing a safer taper. As you are already prescribed diazepam you aren't going to fail a drug test.

Yeah, I'm honestly scared imma have a seizure or something as dangerous. Some nights I wake up screaming bc my RLS goes crazy and I freak. I wanna be honest with my dr but yeah.. I have the PO to consider.
I think my best bet is to do my own taper.
 
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