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BDD Social/Information Booth v25 - Let's all eat some acid!
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Beachcat
Bluelight Crew
Hi Eff- glad you have been having fun with your friends, you needed that. Have missed you though. I think the title of this thread should be changed to: riddle me this....where have all the druggies gone!?
laC-wow dude...seriously, I love drugs,too, but think about where you are going with this...up until now, I get the impression that you are just a young, fun loving student who is having a good time with school and getting high.....but if your parents cut all ties with you, you are homeless and have no money just because of drugs, well, that makes you shift into the hopeless junkie category. Is that really who you want to be?
I am really worried about you, you are young and seem smart, don't throw it all away for something as stupid as drugs. You can't get these years back, man, these are your golden years. Addiction is serious business. Ask your parents to help you get some serious help, I think you really need it. Check yourself in somewhere and don't come out until you think you can handle it.
Much love to you, I am not trying to be harsh, I just think you need a reality check....
laC-wow dude...seriously, I love drugs,too, but think about where you are going with this...up until now, I get the impression that you are just a young, fun loving student who is having a good time with school and getting high.....but if your parents cut all ties with you, you are homeless and have no money just because of drugs, well, that makes you shift into the hopeless junkie category. Is that really who you want to be?
I am really worried about you, you are young and seem smart, don't throw it all away for something as stupid as drugs. You can't get these years back, man, these are your golden years. Addiction is serious business. Ask your parents to help you get some serious help, I think you really need it. Check yourself in somewhere and don't come out until you think you can handle it.
Much love to you, I am not trying to be harsh, I just think you need a reality check....
Mugz
Bluelighter
Hangover, is not fair as I don't deserve one.
Pjkt2501
Bluelighter
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Don't you not have any drugs? A hangover would be very odd if nothing was consumed..
Mugz
Bluelighter
had 3 cans of strong cider last night and a hangover has appeared today that has lasted all day so far, pizza and fizzy drinks are not helping it, considering some more diaz and a coffee to try and rid it.
BabyGurl3171
Bluelighter
laC, I hope everything works out for you. Beach was right.. You don't wanna throw everything away on drugs. I was homeless before I woke up..
Hi effie! Missed ya =) Glad your bein social though.
I agree with Beach, the title should be "where have all the druggies gone" lol. Too quiet in here.. Slowest social on BDD ever? Heh.
I guess I should get to cleanin. I'm on my second wake and bake. Hehe.
Have a good day guys!
Hi effie! Missed ya =) Glad your bein social though.
I agree with Beach, the title should be "where have all the druggies gone" lol. Too quiet in here.. Slowest social on BDD ever? Heh.
I guess I should get to cleanin. I'm on my second wake and bake. Hehe.
Have a good day guys!
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
effie - i've tried quiting so many times it hurts to think about my failures... at the moment i am relatively stable using methylphenidate to control my other drug lust, but it's a dark and horrible road, especially when i run out like yesterday i binged on ephedrine and codeine 
glad i got some more today...
glad i got some more today...Hai guise 
nice to see a few peeps in the social, sorry some of you aren't feeling so good though!
Synthetix, it is really tough.. dark and horrible road indeed! I'm glad the methylphenidate keeps you on an even keel though
Am absolutely exhausted, off to see a mate who's been poorly later but I just want to curl up with a blanket and some cartoons. I'll do that tomorrow I think.. potentially busy weekend, unexpectedly might be going to see Squarepusher with a friend of mine which is very cool but I also need to get a lot of sleeping in!
nice to see a few peeps in the social, sorry some of you aren't feeling so good though!Synthetix, it is really tough.. dark and horrible road indeed! I'm glad the methylphenidate keeps you on an even keel though
Am absolutely exhausted, off to see a mate who's been poorly later but I just want to curl up with a blanket and some cartoons. I'll do that tomorrow I think.. potentially busy weekend, unexpectedly might be going to see Squarepusher with a friend of mine which is very cool but I also need to get a lot of sleeping in!
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
yeah it helps keep my head clear for a little while i guess.. but the tolerance accumulates so damn fast its hard to keep up, i'm essentially substituting my habits for mph which isn't good. i really need to quit all the crap all together.
it seems like ritalin fills my mind with ideas and potential... but when i stop taking it, i'm back to that blank, empty mind with no feelings or thoughts that i hate so much
but hey here's to whatever good times remain with this refill!
it seems like ritalin fills my mind with ideas and potential... but when i stop taking it, i'm back to that blank, empty mind with no feelings or thoughts that i hate so much
but hey here's to whatever good times remain with this refill!
I guess that's the problem with using drugs like that ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
you're artificially flooding your brain with neurotransmitters but tolerance builds and what goes up must come down. Have you had any thoughts about why your mind feels blank and empty? Usually far more effective, especially in the long term, to treat the cause not the symptoms
(Sorry for going a bit TDS-esque, have a cookie though
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you're artificially flooding your brain with neurotransmitters but tolerance builds and what goes up must come down. Have you had any thoughts about why your mind feels blank and empty? Usually far more effective, especially in the long term, to treat the cause not the symptoms (Sorry for going a bit TDS-esque, have a cookie though
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Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
heh - yeah i've tried councelling, CBT and therapy... nothing quite seems to hit the spot but its me being stupid and falling back on myself
guess i need to try harder with it really.
guess i need to try harder with it really.
It's not you being stupid. The fact that it you think it is makes me think that something like CBT could really help you, if you find the right therapist.. my previous boyfriend had two courses of it with no effect but the third course pretty much cured his anxiety. Lots of different types of therapy out there too.. it's definitely not one size fits all. Then again, it's not necessarily the magic answer either, the mind is a pretty complex thing.. for me, getting up and doing things I enjoy, and spending time with people I love works better than a million sessions sat with a therapist. Sadly sometimes I need the therapist to be able to get off my arse and do that.. and sometimes I fall back on drugs. Really trying to stay away from doing that this time though.
Good luck Synth, I hope you find something that works for you soon
Good luck Synth, I hope you find something that works for you soon
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
thank you for the support as always effie. i appreciate it a lot.
how's everyone else doing today?
how's everyone else doing today?
the toad
Bluelighter
I felt hopeless when i had people watching me... i tried quitting dilaudid many times but it seemed that every person and situation in my life triggered uncontrollable urges and cravings... i failed many times over a couple years... then one day i just decided the only way i was gonna have a chance is if i got away from everyone analyzing me and giving me their "pep talks" and "stay clean talks"... i moved from california to colorado with a couple friends who i knew there that didnt do opiates.... i dropped some mdma and smoked a lot of weed but after 2 weeks of abstinence and no triggers i was able to remain free from their grip on me...
Been addiction free for 4 years now.... i still use drugs... even opiates on occasion... but not in a harmful or addictive way... my mindset is npw entirely different...
Ive even had some issues with overuse of mxe and spice but as soon as i began feelijg addicted to them i quit using them.... like i say... my mindset is different now... i dont like the feeling of "needing a drug" instead i strive for "a special treat"...
Been addiction free for 4 years now.... i still use drugs... even opiates on occasion... but not in a harmful or addictive way... my mindset is npw entirely different...
Ive even had some issues with overuse of mxe and spice but as soon as i began feelijg addicted to them i quit using them.... like i say... my mindset is different now... i dont like the feeling of "needing a drug" instead i strive for "a special treat"...
CI, that's excellent that you have managed to shake off the addictive mindset and use drugs recreationally again
I guess one of the key things is keeping vigilant for addictive patterns to creep back in, and knowing you are able to kick it if needs be. Unless you can do both those things, and be honest with yourself, using drugs after being addicted is only going to end in disaster.. a lot of people just can't do it at all.
I'm okay thanks Synth, busy and exhausted and about to head out and pick up some cider, but otherwise okay
I guess one of the key things is keeping vigilant for addictive patterns to creep back in, and knowing you are able to kick it if needs be. Unless you can do both those things, and be honest with yourself, using drugs after being addicted is only going to end in disaster.. a lot of people just can't do it at all.
I'm okay thanks Synth, busy and exhausted and about to head out and pick up some cider, but otherwise okay
Omg guys im clean and i have been shopping alot and it has taken over(addicted to shopping) im never getting high again as long as i can shop have sex and do risky things (speeding, stealing from the mall etc...) lmao. Really i just feel sooo great, why would i fuck up this new natural high for drugs fuck that!! This is way better it never goes away.
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