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Amps are good for school period...especially when you have adhd (I'm diagnosed by a physician: I'm very adhd)...

And I'm too cheap for Crown Royal lol...I only get that stuff on special occasions...and I always get the black...

BTW...would having a quarter of your blood ethanol be alcohol poisoning? lol

I've heard of people surviving much more...
 
thesameoldfears said:
Alright well come pick me up and I'll see if I can't talk you out of some oxy ;)


I love them, I'm glad you got your head on straight and agree now :)


YES.
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if you want the goods you have to come get them ;), and getting here is only half the battle. next you have to coax me to get what you want ;)

took more oxy and valium and kratom. fucking ran out of weed but i have been smokng all day.. so i cant complain, and i am high off the roxi.
 
How long before I can take some DXM safely because I dosed some phentermine earlier? Its not affecting me anymore its been 7-8 hours but I read you can get serotonin syndrome from this combo.
 
well folks it hasn't been so good for me lately in short, I basically broke down and told my mom all about
my anxiety,depression,bipolar(not sure of this one but
pretty damn sure), ADHD, and overall shitty quality of life and we had a long talk in which I told her all of my thoughts (which seem to be very dark lately).... so to make it to the point I told her I'm crazy but I don't want help... it weird as fuck. I suffer with life everyday and have contemplated suicide many times lately. about a week ago I tried killing myself via IV oxymorphone that didn't work so just tonight I tried again with a simple self strangulation with a belt and passed out and woke up a little whole later just pissed off I couldn't kill myself right... I don't know what to do. fuck it I might just go eat a bullet. anyway love u guys!
 
Siccness909 said:
How long before I can take some DXM safely because I dosed some phentermine earlier? Its not affecting me anymore its been 7-8 hours but I read you can get serotonin syndrome from this combo.
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You've been taking it often lately, right? it's half-life can be longer than a day. I wouldn't risk it.

opiodmaniac said:
well folks it hasn't been so good for me lately in short, I basically broke down and told my mom all about
my anxiety,depression,bipolar(not sure of this one but
pretty damn sure), ADHD, and overall shitty quality of life and we had a long talk in which I told her all of my thoughts (which seem to be very dark lately).... so to make it to the point I told her I'm crazy but I don't want help... it weird as fuck. I suffer with life everyday and have contemplated suicide many times lately. about a week ago I tried killing myself via IV oxymorphone that didn't work so just tonight I tried again with a simple self strangulation with a belt and passed out and woke up a little whole later just pissed off I couldn't kill myself right... I don't know what to do. fuck it I might just go eat a bullet. anyway love u guys!
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Dude, you're fucking emotional right now.Making a decision like taking your life in the throes of emotion like this (or any time, but especially now) is not a wise idea and you know it.

We love you too, and can help you get through this shit.
 
you need to wait atleast 16hrs, preferably 18-24hrs if you are taking about 100+mg



@venrak
good post! i agree, dont react to emotions or a shitty week or two, everybody has shitty weeks, even me! lol, things usually get better if yo work for them. i have found that the harder i work, the luckier i feel...it is true, but was a quote from Thomas Jefferson
 
opiodmaniac said:
well folks it hasn't been so good for me lately in short, I basically broke down and told my mom all about
my anxiety,depression,bipolar(not sure of this one but
pretty damn sure), ADHD, and overall shitty quality of life and we had a long talk in which I told her all of my thoughts (which seem to be very dark lately).... so to make it to the point I told her I'm crazy but I don't want help... it weird as fuck. I suffer with life everyday and have contemplated suicide many times lately. about a week ago I tried killing myself via IV oxymorphone that didn't work so just tonight I tried again with a simple self strangulation with a belt and passed out and woke up a little whole later just pissed off I couldn't kill myself right... I don't know what to do. fuck it I might just go eat a bullet. anyway love u guys!
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Why don't you want help? Once I got away from rampant drug abuse, life got a lot fucking better. I quit not giving a shit about my life & began to truly embrace each day like I hadn't in years, despite the fact I was stuck in treatment for a year working 6 days a week for 3 shitty meals, a ton of rules, nary coin in my pocket & no pussy.
 
@venrak this has been more than throws of emotion. I have been in a down hill mental spiral since about 16 and nothing seems to make me happy. you could set a all you could fuck pussy Buffet and a 10 pounds of raw oxymorphone powder and a Ton of coke straight from Columbia and I still wouldn't be happy

@bobloblaw I don't want help because I basically don't believe I doctors and don't believe in getting labeled crazy. it's starting to get unreal now though. I get panic attacks everyday, my ADHD is uncontrollable, my depression is at all time lows yet I still
refuse treatment and I don't know why. my mom tried to make me but all I said was im 20 and you can't make me do shit....
honestly seems like best thing for me to do is die if all I'm doiNg is taking up space and not doing shit with my life I fucking hate it and wish for an escape everyday. (btw it's not the drugs I honestly don't do that much anymore especially compared to me about a year ago.)
 
I'll wait till tomorrow night then if not wensday morning. Thanks guys..I will NOT go through another SS episode. My last one could of been fatal I was told regardless the day still gives me nitemares..Meth OD, SS, and psychosis all at once is fuckin SCARY lol
 
Jktm said:
Amps are good for school period...especially when you have adhd (I'm diagnosed by a physician: I'm very adhd)...

And I'm too cheap for Crown Royal lol...I only get that stuff on special occasions...and I always get the black...

BTW...would having a quarter of your blood ethanol be alcohol poisoning? lol

I've heard of people surviving much more...
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yeah i dont get crown all the time anymore. i still get it sometimes tho, if i got the loot

Jktm said:
I feel I sleep better with less REM sleep. The best sleep I've ever had in my life (and it happened twice) was with Estazolam (ProSom), which is a hypnotic benzodiazepine. Slept for 6 hours and woke up rested. I'll sleep 8-12 hours with other things or nothing and wake up feeling like shit...

edit: deep sleep (called Slow Wave Sleep) is actually where you get your "rest" and that's in NREM Sleep (Non-Rapid Eye Movement Sleep). It's the last stage of NREM IIRC. As an insomniac, I've done a decent amount of research on sleep.

NREM sleep strengthens your declarative memory (aka, you remember facts)
REM sleep strengthens your process memory (or whatever it's called) (aka, you remember how to do things better; i.e. you remember how to perform tasks in order better).

Would explain a lot as I rarely dream, and can remember useless facts, but it takes several times to see how to do something in order for me to be able to do it on my own.

And praise Evan Williams. Easy pour has been popped off and been taking chugs of it with some pibb to chase lol...probably at about a .15 right now...definitely gonna hit .25 before the night is over lol...
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i was at .15 when i got my dui at 19 lol guess i shouldnt have chugged some shots before going to royal farms at 2am
opiodmaniac said:
well folks it hasn't been so good for me lately in short, I basically broke down and told my mom all about
my anxiety,depression,bipolar(not sure of this one but
pretty damn sure), ADHD, and overall shitty quality of life and we had a long talk in which I told her all of my thoughts (which seem to be very dark lately).... so to make it to the point I told her I'm crazy but I don't want help... it weird as fuck. I suffer with life everyday and have contemplated suicide many times lately. about a week ago I tried killing myself via IV oxymorphone that didn't work so just tonight I tried again with a simple self strangulation with a belt and passed out and woke up a little whole later just pissed off I couldn't kill myself right... I don't know what to do. fuck it I might just go eat a bullet. anyway love u guys!
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jesus dude. i hope you bounce back from all this shit man <3

woke up at fucking 330 so ive been up since then. cant go back to sleep now cuz i gotta get ready for work in 10 mins. im fucking baked.

edit: @captain thats crazy they actually have a strain like that. they're just pulling shit out of there asses now lol
 
Jktm you asked if 25% of your blood is ethanol will you die? Yep, you'd be dead at least 40 times over. For any non raging non alcoholics I believe .6% is fatal so 25%...yeah... :)

I'm fucking stoked right now got 7.5 hours of consecutive sleep last night I feel fucking amazing. SUCK IT PAWS.

I forgot the name of the poster who is really depressed and doesn't want help you should check out The Dark Side for support %)

Dunkin donuts medium ice french vanilla caramel swirl no cream no sugar + sausage egg cheese on wheat bagel not toasted = nom nom nom nom nom
followed shortly by a marlboro smooth nom nom nom <3 and sportscenter ofc %)

Good morning friends!
 
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Jktm you asked if 25% of your blood is ethanol will you die? Yep, you'd be dead at least 40 times over. For any non raging non alcoholics I believe .6% is fatal so 25%...yeah... :)

I'm fucking stoked right now got 7.5 hours of consecutive sleep last night I feel fucking amazing. SUCK IT PAWS.

I forgot the name of the poster who is really depressed and doesn't want help you should check out The Dark Side for support %)

Dunkin donuts medium ice french vanilla caramel swirl no cream no sugar + sausage egg cheese on wheat bagel not toasted = nom nom nom nom nom
followed shortly by a marlboro smooth nom nom nom <3 and sportscenter ofc %)

Good morning friends!
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Someone's in a rather cheery mood !
 
well folks im sitting here drinking a beer, smoking a marlboro No.27, and about to smoke a bowl with some kief on it. for the record im still in decision with what im gonna do about my mental health. i know that im not doing well and my mind may seem bleak but i must find a positive in all of this somehow, someway. does anyone have any suggestions about what i should do? (as in go see a doctor and talk about medications, or go to a psychiatrist or what?) anyway whats up BDD? hows everyone doin?
 
opiodmaniac said:
@venrak this has been more than throws of emotion. I have been in a down hill mental spiral since about 16 and nothing seems to make me happy. you could set a all you could fuck pussy Buffet and a 10 pounds of raw oxymorphone powder and a Ton of coke straight from Columbia and I still wouldn't be happy

@bobloblaw I don't want help because I basically don't believe I doctors and don't believe in getting labeled crazy. it's starting to get unreal now though. I get panic attacks everyday, my ADHD is uncontrollable, my depression is at all time lows yet I still
refuse treatment and I don't know why. my mom tried to make me but all I said was im 20 and you can't make me do shit....
honestly seems like best thing for me to do is die if all I'm doiNg is taking up space and not doing shit with my life I fucking hate it and wish for an escape everyday. (btw it's not the drugs I honestly don't do that much anymore especially compared to me about a year ago.)
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Well dude, have you considered that maybe you've grown as an individual and that drugs just don't make you happy any more? What do you do every day? Do you have a routine? Do you put effort into creating situations where you get a sense of accomplishment and in turn the motivation and reward necessary to get up and do the things you should, and the things you enjoy doing?

I know how it goes dude, but if you don't do anything to change your situation, well, your situation doesn't change. And if you keep applying the same external influence on something in a negative state, the only thing that can happen is it will get worse.

It's time to act, man.

I don't mean to be so harsh, but sometimes the simplicity of truth has more meaning and resonates a lot more.

opiodmaniac said:
well folks im sitting here drinking a beer, smoking a marlboro No.27, and about to smoke a bowl with some kief on it. for the record im still in decision with what im gonna do about my mental health. i know that im not doing well and my mind may seem bleak but i must find a positive in all of this somehow, someway. does anyone have any suggestions about what i should do? (as in go see a doctor and talk about medications, or go to a psychiatrist or what?) anyway whats up BDD? hows everyone doin?
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I'm glad you seem to be in a much more positive mood right now :)

I think putting faith in a psychiatrist you trust would be a good idea right now. You can work with them to get treatment that is both effective and that you are comfortable with.

Chin up dude, I'll join you in an international toke session.
 
Venrak said:
Well dude, have you considered that maybe you've grown as an individual and that drugs just don't make you happy any more? What do you do every day? Do you have a routine? Do you put effort into creating situations where you get a sense of accomplishment and in turn the motivation and reward necessary to get up and do the things you should, and the things you enjoy doing?

I know how it goes dude, but if you don't do anything to change your situation, well, your situation doesn't change. And if you keep applying the same external influence on something in a negative state, the only thing that can happen is it will get worse.

It's time to act, man.

I don't mean to be so harsh, but sometimes the simplicity of truth has more meaning and resonates a lot more.




I'm glad you seem to be in a much more positive mood right now :)

I think putting faith in a psychiatrist you trust would be a good idea right now. You can work with them to get treatment that is both effective and that you are comfortable with.

Chin up dude, I'll join you in an international toke session.
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i know its time to act considering things cant really get much worse. and i dont really have a routune and the only drug i use daily is marijuana and opiates about 1-3 times a week and stims and other drugs pretty rarely… so im not like just chillin out doing drugs everyday. but i guess my routine is pretty basic with weed, get up wake and bake otw to work. (7-730am) the blaze on my lunch break (12pm) and blaze when i get off work (5pm)
so pretty regular i gbuess and without weed my anxiety and depression seem to worsen. but im not perscribed anything (literally) and iv never ben to a psychiatrist or a doctor to talk about getting on medication…. like i honestly dont even know where to start. i also am pretty much garunteed to have a panic attack as soon as i start talking to the doc or whoever and am just gonna clam up and not tell them everything i need to know.
p.s. whoever i see should i tell them my use if IV drugs or should i keep that to myself? im prettty confused about that part. some say let them know everything but i dont want them to blacklist me or label me as "drug seeking behavior" and just fuck it all up for myself? so any advice.
 
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