BDD Social and Info Booth Vs 28 - my dealer told me that this was the last time

[hydroazuanacaine]

Dis you take it in your mouth, I mean orally?

the morphine? yeah.

 

[laCster]

I took 120 mg morphine the other week, I couldn't really tell if I was doped, but ended nodding off a couple times.

How much did you take?

 

[hydroazuanacaine]

not even a full 100mg pill. about 2/3rds. low tolerance. with roxy, i take 2/3rds of a 30 and snort the rest a couple hours later.

 

[hangyourhead]

I love IV morphine, or plugged if that's your preference.

Also love 4mg of clonazepam, gabapentin, and sour diesel marijuana that's in my system right now. Girl supposed to swoop me from my place and go get some heavy opiates-- most likely raw smack or fentanyl gel patch

 

[hydroazuanacaine]

or plugged if that's your preference.

you think that makes a big difference over oral? you plug even with extended release pills?

 

[Toz]

Someone killed OD social and I just had a shot of some speed. Now I'm sad!

To do list today: Buy more weed, phone bank about credit card scam that I was a victim of (lost ~2300 euro, so far got 1900 back). Set up education plan for next months, clean the house, shovel snow. Looking at some files right now, who the hell sends copies of Xrays/NMR images while using STANDARD A4 PAPER!? Yea these pictures are fucking great, good luck seeing what's wrong on these lol. Thankfully it says in the file but why even bother including such shitty copies I wonder. Cheap ass insurance companies, not only are they always trying to get away without having to pay the clients, now they cheap out on paper too.

 

[smokemctoke420]

you think that makes a big difference over oral? you plug even with extended release pills?

It makes a difference to me. I've only done morphine about 10-15 times and I didn't get a good high till like the 10th time. The person knew my tolerance was 15-20 mgs of oxy at a time and about 60-75 in a day if I have it and I'm working at my summer job but right now its like 45-60mgs a day if I have it.

Anyways I plugged 3 of the 30 mg tabs, I think they were like a maroon color(oc60 color) and they were the gel ones. Well I crushed em up as Best as I could and put it in the oral syringe and drew up real hot water, I had to shake it for a while but it worked. It was in my top 5 nods ever, that's for sure. I didn't throw up but it was a little to much. It was 3-4 hours if pure bliss followed by 5 hours of a awesome nod. Now if I get it I do like 45 mgs (60 tops) and i can usually chill on that.

Just smoked some kief. I'm high af and this cig is delicious

 

[opiodmaniac]

what the motherfucking fuck happened to the fucking OD social!!! FAKKKkKk anyway I'm fucked up. I smoked a bowl a high grade weed, drank a good but if moonshine, shot up 45 mg of roxi, snorted 15 mg roxi so yeahhhhhhhhhhhh!

 

[Mugz]

AWAKE!!!! Now need to get myself sorted and to the train station in 90 minutes

 

[smokemctoke420]

We're about to get pounded with this storm. It's already windy as fuck

 

[debaser]

you think that makes a big difference over oral? you plug even with extended release pills?

Yes. Plugging morphine is the way to go. Bioavailability is way higher. Even with XR pills

 

[hatrix]

So I definitely came down from my 40mg Adderall. Well, at least to the point where there is zero euphoria and just repetitive speediness with my bobbing my leg up and down a mile a minute and having the attention span of a gold fish.

So far I've taken 0.75mg of Xanax for the comedown. I really want to take more, but I'm doing so slowly since as I mentioned before Tuesday night at like 6 PM I dosed 10mg of Methadone. I've taken it in 0.25mg doses every once in a while. I don't want to stop breathing in my sleep... It's now been 33 hours since the methadone though and honestly I think I'm perfectly fine to take just about any amount of xanax (in reason of course). Everything seems fine though. I can breath in all the way without much of a problem. There's a slight strain feeling when taking a really deep breath, but I honestly almost get that normally. Lungs are just at capacity

I don't have any shortness of breath or even the slightest amount of feeling I'm going to pass out. I think it's safe to take a bit more xanax until I feel I can sleep. Agreed BDD social, or anyone thats up lol ?

I really want to go up to 1.5-2mg of xanax. Just still scared in the back of my mind because of methadones stupid long half life. It was my first time using but I'm pretty sure effects were completely again mid day today. I actually nodded out after waking up and coming back from class early in the morning and slept for like 4 hours.

And damn I really want to try morphine sometime. I would definitely plug it.

 

[tentram]

you'll be fine taking a little extra xanax by now. although methadone has a long halflife it's peak concentration levels are between around 8-12 hours.

i just awoke from an awesome nap, sleeping most the day away (it's 1900 now) from being up on the morph and valium most of last night. made myself a bite to eat, went and done my business in the bathroom, prepped a 100mg shot and just had it. ahhhhh, i fell good nananananaaaah and i knew that i would.

it was overcast with some showers throughout the day so the temperature and dark sky was absolutely perfect day time sleeping conditions and i made the best of it. i'll likely be in bed early tonight but shawshank redemption is on and i'd like to watch it cause it's just an awesome movie, maaaaan.

what have you druggies been up to, eh?

 

[pasha]

Um I don't live with my parents, my parents pay for my doctor visits but that's it. There is patient doctor confidentiality once you are 18 so your doc cannot legally tell your parents what medications you take.

See its not about living with them, I'm in my mid twenties and I study abroad, my parents know about my drug use because it obviously isn't something that can be hidden easily. But it's through my high school years all the way till when I got my bachelors it been a game of cat and mouse. They gave me an ultimatum before going abroad, that if I get caught using they'll basically cut me off but in a softer way. When your dependant on them for money, and even positive reinforcement in anyway it becomes difficult. I know doctors can't tell my parents but I go home three times a year, if I were to take my shit with me they'd do know for sure.

well, my parents got no say in what i can and can't do considering i'm near 27 i live with my father and we smoke weed together, done coke together, etc. and he's known about me being an injector for a fair few years now (well pretty much since i began) and although he doesn't exactly embrace it, he is tolerable. i don't go leaving dirty needles or anything of the like laying around the house which probably accounts for part of his toleration. he's also been an ex heroin junkie himself and used to get on the speed (meth) a bit back in his days. though, from what i gather he had the love for tripping on shrooms or some Lucy.

i've got a degenerative disc disease in my lumbar region - spondylolysis - so it's not too hard for me to not get an opioid script (and usually valium) from a new doctor when they have a look at my x-ray. my spondylolysis is clearly visible in my x-rays so i've a definitive diagnoses unlike quite a few people who suffer from chronic back pain yet nothing is visible with their scans, etc so for the most part aren't medicated or if they are they're usually under medicated and/or inappropriate medication.

so yeah, having a fucked back is how i manage to get all my goodies. but within a heartbeat if i could opt out of this life long back pain and everything tied into it i sure as fuck would. i'd be devastated in having to give up the meds side of the thing after the years i've had them scripted

Well see in a way you've caught a break because I assume your Aussie. All my friends who were Aussie had parents that where chillaxed as fuck. My old best mate Chrispy was from Perth, he literally used to fuck hookers with his dad, drink with him, all three of us did ketamine. I guess you catch my jist, Australians embrace life in a way, I know you can't generalize but that's what I've seen from my experience, most of them are happy irregardless of their social/financial situation in life.

I'm sorry to hear you have spondylosis. At least your making the most out of it.

Well he's a shrink and has been working with me for a few years. I filed a lawsuit against him for negligent care and ever since he seems very happy to comply with my requests. He isn't breaking any laws though by doing what he is. And he actually suggested the oxy and that methadone would be a waste if time.

So I'm now on a cocktail of dexedrine, oxy, Valium, lyrica and Xanax. So much win:

Also my mother isn't happy about it but has accepted it now. As long as I'm honest she won't touch my stuff.

Looool! Blackmail. Nice :D

You got a sick combination going on. See I'm excellent at manipulating doctors, so that's not my issue, back when I was younger I used to run into doctors offices just to grab scripts for friends, I know exactly how to act and exactly what to say (without going into details).

Your mothers also come to terms with it which my parents never will, they're lovely people, but to them they were raised at a place and age where drugs are taboo. Smoking weed = injecting heroin to them, and unfortunately the laws facilitate that mindset back home, were weed, codeine, heroin, etc have the same sentencing guidelines, 4 years minimum for possession which means just having it in your blood, so if someone has it out for you they can just point the finger and your gone into a dark place, and 20 years minimum for distribution which is as low as having a couple of grams.

Aside from tentrams medical condition, you guys got it eaaazzyy. It's like this never ending cycle where you do drugs, switch to the substance recovery, do drugs, switch to substance recovery........

 

[tentram]

Well see in a way you've caught a break because I assume your Aussie. All my friends who were Aussie had parents that where chillaxed as fuck. My old best mate Chrispy was from Perth, he literally used to fuck hookers with his dad, drink with him, all three of us did ketamine. I guess you catch my jist, Australians embrace life in a way, I know you can't generalize but that's what I've seen from my experience, most of them are happy irregardless of their social/financial situation in life.

I'm sorry to hear you have spondylosis. At least your making the most out of it.

eh, no need to be sorry. i was first diagnosed as spina bifida at around 15 after hurting my back in a football match and was taken for x-rays. then when i had updated scans a few years down the road where the pain was at the point that something needed to be done about it, then it was diagnosed as spondylolysis.

and yeah, i am aussie haha. i can totally understand where you're coming from. drugs aren't foreign to our family at all so, for the most part, it's tolerated and noone is ostracised for dabbling unless of course you're a thieving, scamming piece of shit, you know? i'm pretty good friends with a few of dads friends as well and we've all been on the coke before, smoke dope together, i've had them sell me methadone, etc, etc. we're far from conservative

See I'm excellent at manipulating doctors, so that's not my issue, back when I was younger I used to run into doctors offices just to grab scripts for friends, I know exactly how to act and exactly what to say (without going into details).

haha, yeah, i'm much the same especially because i have a definitive diagnoses i've been able to manipulate a few doctors into having me on quite the mix. at one stage a doc had me on oxy, codeine, valium, baclofen and neurontin and temazepam whenever i put on the "i'm still having much trouble sleeping, can i've a short course of temazepam?" and got it no worries. it's nothing to be proud of, but yeah, just goes to show that some doctors are compassionate and wanting to help you manage your condition even though they're being manipulated to a point.

 

[pasha]

^Well you know when your a pain patient the line of using opioids recreationally and medically is very thin. It's a grey area and the doctors knw that, I know there are people who use their opioids responsibility but all I'm saying is there's a very low chance they're not enjoying the shit out of it.

See that's what I mean about Aussies Loool, it so difficult not to find one that isn't taking it easy. My Aussie friends used to tell me that the aboriginals sniff petrol or 'pederol' or glue and start fights. I don't mean to be racist or anything but has that situation been resolved?

You got quite a combination as well, I've read you use your morphine IV, and also heroin, which do you prefer? How does the baclofen go with the opioids? Have you tried carisoprodol, it has a similar pharmacological profile to barbiturates?

I didn't mean to romanticize your situation with the sorry, just something I say.

 

[tentram]

haha, yeah, you definitely got that laid back, chilled out ausse stereotype right.

my doc knows i use other drugs, knows about my addiction and abuse problems in the past, etc. he even know's i shoot the morphine, but only ever rarely and he's never expressed any concern and shows me trust in having a good say in my treatment plan. he's even said to me something to the effect of "you're on of the better younger pain patients i have because you're obviously not abusing your script to the point of coming in wanting early refills on a regular basis, etc", though explicitly warned me if i were to start that that he would have no problem refusing my medications. sneaky bastard peeks up and down my arms on occasion to check for fresh track marks but they're never there :D

i actually don't use heroin. have very limited experience with it. so i can't really give a fair judgement on which i like better but i do love my IV morphine and have quite enjoyed what heroin i have used. my current med regime consists of morphine, codeine and valium. baclofen stopped working for me and i started getting bad side effects after being on neurontin for quite a while so cut that out.

unfortunately the petrol sniffing is still quite a problem among some indigenous townships/citizens especially in the more remote area. some aboriginal towns have a ban on alcohol consumption so they turn to chroming and huffing which is sad to see and know that it goes on. in a city an hours north of where i live there's a fairly big problem in regards to aboriginals chroming and drinking in a public park - i won't repeat what the park is dubbed because it's highly racist, but the council kinda kicked them out of hanging in that park leaving them to move onto the river front more out of the public eye. they're (the council, local authorities) doing fuck all to help them with the problem, they'd rather sweep them under the rug and keep them out of the public's eye the extreme remote places with alcohol bans still have people smuggling alcohol into their towns and selling it for absurdly high prices which only perpetuates problems and the stereotype surrounding them. there are things being done about it just it's not highly successful from what i see and understand myself. i'll be the first to admit i don't know a great deal about it for the most part.

ha, it didn't seem you were romanticising my condition. i just get a lot of "sorry to hear, etc" when people hear about my problem. i've come to terms with it so i'm all about managing it rather than living by it, letting it define me.

edit - i never liked baclofen in a recreational sense whatsoever, it gives a dirty high if you can even call it a high. it worked well as a muscle relaxant for a while but diazepam trumps it by far. and we don't get some here, so no haven't used it before.

 

[hatrix]

you'll be fine taking a little extra xanax by now. although methadone has a long halflife it's peak concentration levels are between around 8-12 hours.

i just awoke from an awesome nap, sleeping most the day away (it's 1900 now) from being up on the morph and valium most of last night. made myself a bite to eat, went and done my business in the bathroom, prepped a 100mg shot and just had it. ahhhhh, i fell good nananananaaaah and i knew that i would.

it was overcast with some showers throughout the day so the temperature and dark sky was absolutely perfect day time sleeping conditions and i made the best of it. i'll likely be in bed early tonight but shawshank redemption is on and i'd like to watch it cause it's just an awesome movie, maaaaan.

what have you druggies been up to, eh?

Shit not sure where you live.... It's fucking 6:17 AM here and I should probablyyyy go to sleep considering my alarm is set for 8:45AM.... Fuck me lol. This is a bad habit that I can't seem to get out of. Even if I don't take any drugs I'm still up until like 2-3AM. I'm just a night owl, I can't help it. It also doesn't help that when I work I work at 5PM and close at a restaurant so I usually don't get home until like 12-1AM. Then I'm up still for hours because I've been going going going for the past 6-8 hours. My sleep schedule is fucked. That methadone on Tuesday made me nod out and sleep for so long during the day today lol.

I'm up to 2mg of xanax. About to take another 0.5 and try to sleep. Haven't noticed any breathing problems at all. Methadone is probably completely out of my system, I was worrying for nothing. Glad it's out too, I plan on plugging 35mg of hydro tomorrow night.

 

[tentram]

you must be american, yeah? i'm in the future land known as australia.

good to hear you got along nice and safely with the 'done and xanax. have fun with the hydro tomorrow

 

[hatrix]

you must be american, yeah? i'm in the future land known as australia.

good to hear you got along nice and safely with the 'done and xanax. have fun with the hydro tomorrow

Ahh Australia. How's the unbearable heat going for you ? And yes I'm in the good old USA. It was fucking 6 degrees a few days ago. It was 60 degrees today but it's going back down for a while in a couple days. Joy.

Me too ! Glad I didn't experience any breathing problems or the comedown would have really sucked. I'm looking forward to the hydro tomorrow, I've never dosed that much. Most I've taken at once was 20mg. Going to have to do a CWE first though, they are 5/500s. It would be wayyyyyyyy to much powder to plug, plus my liver will thank me.