Gratitude and Ego.
Appreciation and Resentment.
Joy and Selfishness That Benefits No One.
I was being troubled last night (environment causing stress and pain, no doubt my bad karma causing me to have to endure it) by mood swings. They were directly caused by a painful enviroment (shitty bike ride home in freezing wet conditions later than I like to be out, welcome to the world of retail sales). Now I am not saying I do not have the ability to choose whether moods control me or I manage them maturely. I let the moods last night control me. I started having nasty thoughts of a person who has helped me alot in my life and projected my current situation (unwanted) as being caused by their influence on me. Even if I feel this way there is no reason to be disrespectful but I was throwing a temper tantrum over it. It wasn't as bad as similar mood swings in the past where I placed really disrespectful blame on this person however I know this needs to stop if I am to grow and move forward with my life and present reality.
Just some stuff related to wolves, for fun really. I was going to talk about something else too but this is all I can recall. Have a nice day.
Oh ya one more video I wanted to discuss in the comments. Without the discussion.
"Wolf! Right here and now!"
― Peter Straub, The Talisman
"Before he can become a wolf, the lycanthrope strips naked. If you spy a naked man among the pines, you must run as if the Devil were after you."
― Angela Carter, Burning Your Boats: The Collected Short Stories
Appreciation and Resentment.
Joy and Selfishness That Benefits No One.
I was being troubled last night (environment causing stress and pain, no doubt my bad karma causing me to have to endure it) by mood swings. They were directly caused by a painful enviroment (shitty bike ride home in freezing wet conditions later than I like to be out, welcome to the world of retail sales). Now I am not saying I do not have the ability to choose whether moods control me or I manage them maturely. I let the moods last night control me. I started having nasty thoughts of a person who has helped me alot in my life and projected my current situation (unwanted) as being caused by their influence on me. Even if I feel this way there is no reason to be disrespectful but I was throwing a temper tantrum over it. It wasn't as bad as similar mood swings in the past where I placed really disrespectful blame on this person however I know this needs to stop if I am to grow and move forward with my life and present reality.
Just some stuff related to wolves, for fun really. I was going to talk about something else too but this is all I can recall. Have a nice day.
Oh ya one more video I wanted to discuss in the comments. Without the discussion.
"Wolf! Right here and now!"― Peter Straub, The Talisman
― Angela Carter, Burning Your Boats: The Collected Short Stories
