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Bad trips, and what you learn from them.

pf echoes

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My second time doing mushrooms was the first time I had eaten 3.5 grams. We did not know the potency of the mushrooms since we had gotten them before anyone else had tripped off them. when I had peaked a series of terrifying things happened.

1. We were convinced that a planet was crashing down onto us. We refused to think it was the moon because it had a fiery surface. I ran inside and tried to put music on to calm myself down. I couldn't figure out how the computer worked. I saw my friend standing in his kitchen though the computer screen. I couldn't take it anymore, I ran outside as fast as I could.

2. Some friends that weren't tripping showed up, I swear that their cars were police cars, I could see the lights on top of their cars and everything. When they got out they told me us to come with them. One of them opened up the back door to the truck and a person was sqeezed tightly into a ball and started unraveling themselves, he jumped out and picked me up. I had loss all sense to what was real anymore. I was convinced that the people that had showed up were working for the cops. Right after I thought this a cop passed the house. I ran hoping that I could get away before the cops saw me.

3. I was running into the forest as fast as I could. I found a section of grass that was very tall, I decided to hide in it. After hiding in the grass I saw flashlights coming through the field. I was convinced that it was someone coming to hurt me, so I crawled as fast as I could away from them. I heard sirens and people running all around me. I wondered how I was not seen yet. As I kept crawling through all the mud and horse shit crawling underneath barbed wire fences. I had cut the shit out of my chest and back, I was bleeding everywhere. I knew that I was going to die soon. I began rolling through the fields because I was to tired to use my arms anymore. I could hear violins playing more and more intense the more tired I grew. I felt as though I was going to die any second while that was going on. After a while I decided to get up and start walking back to the house. I didn't know how long I was gone for but I knew for sure the cops would have been gone by now. When I got back to the house my friends asked where the hell I was at and why I was so cut up. I had been gone for over 2 hours. By this time I thought that I had died in my old life. And in the afterlife you were given the power to create your own reality. I was predicting things before they were happening and EVERYTHING that I predicted was happening. I would think of something and 2 seconds later my friends would say what I wanted them to say. I saw a picture of nun chucks in my head and my friends dad came around the corner of the house flinging a pair of nun chucks around. It's crazy to think it was all just coincidence.

I knew that this trip had been one of the worst anyone could have ever experienced. I experienced the world ending. I learned how far you will go to get out alive. I crawled for over two hours so I could escape from what I thought were people coming to kill me. I learned the hardships that people put each other in through times of war. I know what Jews felt like when running for their lifes from Nazis. I know what it's like to be hunted. I went to the deepest darkest parts of the human mind. I experienced true insanity. I know what it will be like when it truly is "The End".

Country's are just a way for people to control one another and get them to do what they want. The goal for every nation is to gain more power. And what is power in todays world? Money. Money is the worlds ultimate evil. People will do whatever it takes to get something that is worth nothing. We spend our whole life's working for a country so we can make the rich richer. Our whole life is based around getting something that will someday kill us all off. I discovered that where we are today is because of the hardships we put each other through in humanity. And the only way to move forward as a species is to leave our differences behind us and work together. Because war with each other doesn't solves anything. And war never changes.

Which leads to my question, What happened in your worst trip? And what did you learn from it?
 
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It was my first trip for me.

Totally weird because i was half expecting to.

Im the kind of person that is very afraid of alternate states of mind, because im always thinking about what could go wrong i guess. but i love them at the same time. for instance when i smoked pot i would always FREAK the hell out and think i was gonna die and my heart would explode etc.

My first trip was on mushies, i had WAAAY too many. my friends all took 4. i had 8, i wasnt aware that i had the extra 4 because i was already off my tits.

it started out real great, first thing i noticed was that every light had this large rainbow around it. then i started laughing, A lot. every word anyone said tickled and i couldnt stop. we went to McDonalds and i couldnt stop laughing so i started to walk around to try look casual. then i strolled into the toilet and all i could hear was this real elevator sounding music that almost seemed to be coming from this sort of empty space in my head. thats when i noticed the empty space in my head. i closed my eyes and it didnt look like i was looking at a flat blank eyelid. it FELT like i was looking inside a room. its a real weird trying to imagine but it was cool. and i had the same sensation with the thoughts in my head, they were loud and seemd as though they were being projected from this room, this head space.

out of the blue i hear this deep "mufasa in the sky" voice say "DAAAVID", i turn around and see this urinal looking at me, i have this nice conversation and find out he was just "hanging with his friends".

when i leave the toilet i yell out "I just made a friend" then everyone in the cue looked at me, thats when i noticed how many people were in the cue. it seems like thousands. in fact the entire room was PACKED with people. (the sun had gone down at this point) but i couldnt focus on anyone there, kinda like that optical illusion where you cant focus on the dots because they keep moving.

we leave that place and head towards this "theater sports night" we sit outside and this is where i begin to peak. i notice how noisey everything is. all the people, all the sounds were meshed into this one "djfhaslkdjfhalsjdfhasierupqwerjsdfhlasjdfh" and i couldnt tell what was going on. i found it so overwhelming.

i look out at some people walking towards me, suddenly the background disappears and they start float walking on this mental road that leads into a jug that fills with water that splashes me in the face. then i see the outline of a face in blue dots, then just like a badly encoded DVIX movie the picture comes back in squares and i notice im looking up at this lady who said "are you alright?" and reply "im alive?". turns out i bit through my lip (as in it was holding on by a thread) passed out for a second and stood up.

i wipe my face and see blood on my hand. at this point i think "what happend" and my friend says "you fell over dude", i remember thinking "this is probably a good time to freak out". and thats when all hell broke loose and i ran around telling people im on magic mushrooms and having this incredable urge to go lie down but denying it to myself because it was dark and the minions would get me.

a few friends of mine (who happend to be there) were got me to calm down and took me to a drinking fountain. as we were walking there i remember seeing cars parked on random places and familiar faces getting out of them and looking at me, i just tried to act as though i was ok.

at this point i called my mum and she picked me up. she told me it was alright (i was fully peaking by now) and i felt this HUGE warmth inside (probably because the car was warm and outside was like 0C and i was in shorts and a T shirt)

I get home still sorta freaking out, lay on my mums bed and stare at her tv (which was turned off) watching it skip frames, the shadows were skipping back and forward.

eventually i started thinking i needed to work with this, so i started thinking "lets see if i can control this" and closed my eyes and retreated to my head space. i began to think about bacteria and hello kitty and lots of things and what ever i was thinking my head space hallucination thing would sort of direct itself to.

eventually i came down and for a long time after that i felt really insane. felt like it had brought on a psychos, the reality was i began to fear a normal state of mind. even the minor UP drinking coffee gave me freaked me out.

i got depressed and all sorts and felt the only way to fix it was to go back into a trip. but i didnt have the ability to, mum was keeping a watchful eye.

eventually i started smoking weed therapeutically on my own for a while. first time i felt like i was gonna die, had such a bad panic attack it felt like i wanted to kill myself, told myself i would never do it again. next night same thing. 2 highs later i started relaxing a bit. and now i feel as though there is no such thing as a bad mental state. everything has its pros and cons, and ive learnt that when you feel that you are loosing control, its no big deal, just roll with it, i could just be tired or hungry, it will pass.

And i honestly feel that drugs started and ended my psychotic tenancies




*looks back at post i just wrote, holy crap good luck reading through that =]*
 
Holy smokes fellas :D

We have a Trip Reports forum where you can post your masterpieces. :)

About "bad" trips; most here just consider them "difficult" trips. Something is usually learned. I suppose the real bad trips are just physically dangerous.

My most difficult trip was my first; mushrooms, 5.4g in tea. Basically I was having demons infiltrate my mind and they were poking and taunting me (in the scariest way imaginable) from the inside, like psychological rape. It basically had me crying and praying to some higher power for mercy. It was my rock bottom, reduced to nothing; shattered.

It snapped me out of the fake socially conformist trap I was heavily wrapped up in. It reminded me of who I truly was and to always remember who I am, never get caught up in what others want you to be like. The flip side of that freedom from bondage came a long line of social alienation.

We have a big thread about "bad trips" Have You Ever had a Bad Trip?
 
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