Bad trip making you want to trip that much more?

[Listening]

Earlier in the morning on my birthday my parents called me and instead of happy birthday wishes i just got a bunch of we're disappointed in you bullshit. i mean i have a job i am working, i am conducting myself just the same as any other normal person would, they just have their own issues... On top of all of that, I am adopted...

Damn, that's some fucked up shit. Most people wouldn't be able to handle the intense emotions that would come from parents acting like that (on your birthday?); even sober. The fact that you freaked out on a psychedelic almost seems like a normal reaction to me. If you're not already doing so, you should go see a psychologist and really work through this shit. Your (adopted) parents probably will never change, but at least you can find a way to repair the damage that they (presumably unknowingly) caused. Good luck.

 

[psood0nym]

You're not alone. I've tripped a number of times since That Night (as it is known amongst those who were present), and although I'm still working at integrating that experience, I still take LSD. I guess I'm multitasking :D

This report seems like it was initially overlooked, but it's a great read. Check TR Raw, there's some new comments now.

 

[Spitfire706]

The only possible combination that will guarantee a good trip...LSD + The joy of painting with Bob Ross. No way ur havin a bad trip with that combo!

 

[alantis360]

yeah mushrooms can be rough , like a wooden roller coaster. But like others said, even though it seems bad I have learned a lot on a few of my particularly "bad" trips, one being with mushrooms.

 

[lightitup]

My whole life, has been a bad trip, up until the day i tried to kill myself, and my parents kicked me out of the house.

Jesus man, that sounds fucking terrible. I think you are one of the most amazing people I have heard of, to turn something so shitty into a beautiful learning experience. Stay safe, and I wish you luck on your journey.

As for the Bob Ross, I may have to try that.

 

[Raw Evil]

Your post & TheMerryPrankster's post are very detailed and a very enjoyable read, but the story's are in fact very shattering experiences for the reader (in my case) at least, let alone for you.

hopefully you can pass through the problems. Don't try and sprint, crawl..
I'm rooting for you both

Thanks . Understanding it has been a maze of complexity, but I'm working my way through it with a combination of reflection and creative writing. The more I write, the more I understand. I do need to set aside time to the task a little more often though

And I promise I'll stop linking that report one day. Pinky swear.

 

[Cerpintaxt]

I can also relate to this experience. I had a bad trip in november that caused me to do the same thing. A long night of acid, molly, and dmt led to one of my friends somehow having a major seizure right in front of us at our apartment. We proceeded to freak the fuck out and call 911. Talking to cops and paramedics about that shit while tripping on lots of acid was not fun to say the least, especially when one of your other friends has had a complete mental break by now and is crying on the couch to the paramedics. That friend soon dove to the bottom of his growing opiate problem. The friend who seized was fine pretty much, he did quit drugs except for weed though. I was affected with irrational paranoia and other bad trip effects for about two months. Ever since then Ive developed a new respect for psychadelics and decided to make sure I understood completely what I was taking. I'm glad you posted this because Ive been feeling the exact same way lately. I actually took 3 hits of acid this morning for the first time since that night and it was the most amazing trip of my life. I feel ive been completely relieved of the memory of that night now.

Peace

 

[Chemical Wizard]

I recently just had an insanely crazy hellishly scary acid trip. Well, it was 3 hits of ridiculously good acid, best i've ever had, ~25 mgs of 2C-D, and repeated lines of ketamine. 4 of us bought 3.5 grams and were just doing lines of it. Long story short, I k-holed and had fucked up visions of getting carried away by souls in a spectral net, and having to endure confrontations with various forces before i started to come down. Intense as fuck.

I ended up having an anxiety attack, and luckily my friends had an ativan to give me, which helped considerably. I've never ever before had a trip that got to a level where i needed anxiety medication.

At one point in the night i remember saying "should i throw out the research chemicals ????" and "i've done a lifetime of tripping in a night" and thinking I was totally on the brink of sanity and not coming back. The visions of getting carried away really did it for me.

But yeah, it didn't take long before that whole event just became a learning experience, an awesome one at that, and a highly valauble one, since i did not actually get hurt. And i really want to trip again already.

 

[Ramirez]

In some cases. After my last episode with acid (or whatever was on the blotter, not sure if it actually was acid or not, although I'm more and more sure that it was just ridiculously powerful, high-dose) and my near-panic attack (which, now that I look back, was totally unfounded) I've been leery of acid, but then again it doesn't mean I won't take it again.

As for salvia, it's a bit of a frustration for me. I've only done it twice, and have not had a full breakthrough quite yet, where I get a truly full experience. Plus, there's no afterglow, just anger and resentment along with (in some cases) a vengeful attitude toward anyone that rubs me the wrong way, joking or not. It's a drug that has definitely caused me the most frustration, and I'm determined to give it as many tries as it takes (I am well aware that one cannot simply force these things, playing with psyches, especially salvia, can be like playing with fire with your temporary sanity) and if the drug finally defeats me and bests my patience, then so be it for salvia. I may not be one of those people that can have a fulfilling experience. However, in the right setting, with the right people, I can probably do it and not get the extreme resentment of every living being around me afterwards. I attribute my first experience (the trip itself was fun, but afterward I was on edge and I permanently lost some people's friendship, at least to the scale we'd had it before) to the wrong mindset and a tense setting afterward. The second time, I had the right mindset, knowing full well what I was in for, but the circle I did it in had never done it before, and they therefore had the wrong mindset and setting going on. What frustrated me most about them was their absolute disrespect for the drug, and their usual bullshit which sometimes I wonder why I bother to put up with.

Rantings on salvia aside, I've got roughly 4 grams of shrooms (although, they'be been sitting in a drawer for two weeks...) set aside and I'm waiting for the opportune moment to consume them, and I see such a time coming up, but my window of time is rapidly closing.

So, in short: yes, to an extent.