Bad trip 25i-NBOMe (need help)

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Several months ago I had a bad trip on 25i-NBOMe series. And when I say BAD, I mean it. It would have been just a standard nightmare-like experience on psychodelics, getting stuck in the loop and stuff, you probably know what I am talking, but the next day I woke up in a hospital. Later on I have been told by a "friend", how I was dead(literally) for a few minutes, went into coma and how he saved me by restricting my movement(which you should never do). Anyways, I lost my memory (for a few weeks I was getting lost on the way to my own apartment), had flashbacks, severe anxiety and paranoia. All this happened 6 months ago and I am still recovering. I already tried a lot of things: prescription drugs, nootropics, sport, being outside a lot, keeping myself busy, but that feeling is still there and I am still scared to be alone. When I go to bed I am scared to close my eyes, sometimes I feel like I have multiple-personality disorder, which I dont, but it is still frightening, have tiny flashbacks, etc. There is now way I could discribe to you what happened to me that night, it's just pointless, but I hope you can understand. Feel free to give any suggestions.