Pill - 210mg (possibly) - first time
So i had never taken mdma before, besides gumming it at a festival of which i felt no affects, and so really wanting to feel the effects of mdma, i made a stupid decision. I was at a rave with some mates and i decided to buy a pill off a random guy selling them at the rave. They were 'pink hello kitty pills' and i had no idea what was in them, i just assumed it was mainly mdma.
I then proceeded to drop half of the pill.
45 mins later i was feeling absolutely nothing. Stupidly, i made my second mistake, i dropped the other half. About 10 mins in, a grin appeared on my face and i suddenly felt an extreme wave of euphoria. Out of nowhere i just felt pure love for everyone around me. I ran over to my friend, told him i finally felt it and hugged him, then i started dancing.
Let the horror begin.
5 minutes later, i for some reason walked in to the smoking area (i dont remember why) and suddenly colours from the lights around me started getting very blurry and intense. Out of nowhere my heart started pounding rapidly and i felt all of a sudden extremely nauseous. Luckily, i bumped into my friend and i said to him 'i need to sit down'.
Immediately he pulled me over to the sofas in the smoking area and suddenly i felt like i was gonna die. There were no seats so i just sat down on the floor leaning against the sofa with my head in my hands and my heart pounding through my chest. My friends tapped me and i took my head out my hands. He was talking, but his words were flying at 1000mph. I literally couldn't understand him, it was like his words were whizzing past me.
Other people were asking me what i had taken, but all i heard was that word taken about 5 times in a second.
I suddenly started thinking about how i was going to be just a statistic in the ecstasy drug deaths. I thought i had taken a dodgy pill (I'll never know). I started thinking of my parents and my body dead in a newspaper as i started to shake and suddenly sweat like a pig. People around me were checking my heart pulse. This scared me even in more and nearly sent me into a full blown breakdown, i genuinely thought this was the end. Luckily some mates found me and took care of me.
This lasted 10 mins, then after this i proceeded to have a great 2 more hours, i felt tingly, pure love, wanted to find all my mates and just felt content.
There wasnt really a comedown, but for the whole week after i was depressed.
I realise that this was most likely due to anxiety during the comeup as well as a potentially dodgy pill and too much mdma all at once. But i really want to roll again, but am scared for my life, any advice would be greatly appreciated.
BTW - i searched the pills online and it says they are 210mg of mdma on pill report.
Also, althought i dont condone the use of illegal substances, if you do take them, please dont do what i did and not test your substances.
So i had never taken mdma before, besides gumming it at a festival of which i felt no affects, and so really wanting to feel the effects of mdma, i made a stupid decision. I was at a rave with some mates and i decided to buy a pill off a random guy selling them at the rave. They were 'pink hello kitty pills' and i had no idea what was in them, i just assumed it was mainly mdma.
I then proceeded to drop half of the pill.
45 mins later i was feeling absolutely nothing. Stupidly, i made my second mistake, i dropped the other half. About 10 mins in, a grin appeared on my face and i suddenly felt an extreme wave of euphoria. Out of nowhere i just felt pure love for everyone around me. I ran over to my friend, told him i finally felt it and hugged him, then i started dancing.
Let the horror begin.
5 minutes later, i for some reason walked in to the smoking area (i dont remember why) and suddenly colours from the lights around me started getting very blurry and intense. Out of nowhere my heart started pounding rapidly and i felt all of a sudden extremely nauseous. Luckily, i bumped into my friend and i said to him 'i need to sit down'.
Immediately he pulled me over to the sofas in the smoking area and suddenly i felt like i was gonna die. There were no seats so i just sat down on the floor leaning against the sofa with my head in my hands and my heart pounding through my chest. My friends tapped me and i took my head out my hands. He was talking, but his words were flying at 1000mph. I literally couldn't understand him, it was like his words were whizzing past me.
Other people were asking me what i had taken, but all i heard was that word taken about 5 times in a second.
I suddenly started thinking about how i was going to be just a statistic in the ecstasy drug deaths. I thought i had taken a dodgy pill (I'll never know). I started thinking of my parents and my body dead in a newspaper as i started to shake and suddenly sweat like a pig. People around me were checking my heart pulse. This scared me even in more and nearly sent me into a full blown breakdown, i genuinely thought this was the end. Luckily some mates found me and took care of me.
This lasted 10 mins, then after this i proceeded to have a great 2 more hours, i felt tingly, pure love, wanted to find all my mates and just felt content.
There wasnt really a comedown, but for the whole week after i was depressed.
I realise that this was most likely due to anxiety during the comeup as well as a potentially dodgy pill and too much mdma all at once. But i really want to roll again, but am scared for my life, any advice would be greatly appreciated.
BTW - i searched the pills online and it says they are 210mg of mdma on pill report.
Also, althought i dont condone the use of illegal substances, if you do take them, please dont do what i did and not test your substances.