Bad comedown from MDMA.

[melanie0517]

I have done MDMA 6 times in the past year and half. I am by no means a heavy, or even moderate user, however, 3 of those 6 times were within the last 6 days. One day on (oral small amount 50mg-3/13), two days off, two more days on(oral small amount one day 50mg-3/16, last day I kinda did small amounts all day long, oral and sniffing, maybe 300mg over the course of 12 hours, on an empty stomach-3/17) No rolling. Just felt more energy and more talkative, but that is really it. I was at work and no one noticed and I functioned perfectly, but I was sweating a bit more than usual. I tend to act largely normal on most drugs, maybe because I never take high doses. I didn't measure, but it was less than half a gram in all over the course of the 5 days, educated guesses. The comedown has been far worse than i would ever think possible. I felt the first effects of comedown after the 2 day break, I know depression and anxeity well, I just didn't know why they seemed to hit so hard at once. I do now. I am scared now of what's going to come after 2 more days of ingesting it(I feel depressed today, tomorrow will be 2 days post and I'm expecting bad things). Is it going to be even worse than what I experienced after just one day? Only seems logical that it will. If I had known comedown existed, I never would have done it again just 2 days later. I didn't know how dangerous this was going into it. I never would have pushed it. I am already a anxious and depressed person and this has exaserbated everything in ways I wasn't aware of.

I mix up letter and words. Its an effort to spell, and acronyms are very difficult. MDMA is often MADM and MAO was AMO unless I carefully make myself type out the right letters. Does that even make sense? I repeatedly say summer for winter and vice versa, even with people correcting me. My entire thought process is taking more effort in general for little to no result. Short term memory is no where to be found.

I really don't feel I did any lasting damage, just depleted what little serotonin I had so depression and anxiety can run rampant, and it has thrown my brain off in some way. How long will it take before I can spell and think again? I miss feeling like me. I love my brain, I am so sad that I caused damage to it. The depression I can handle if I know where it comes from and that it will pass. Anxiety is a million times worse, imo. I'd rather die than feel high anxiety. I am taking L-tryptophan supplements to try to counteract what I think is coming tomorrow. I have been making myself eat and drink. I smoked a bit of weed because I read it helps, but I recently quit and I don't want to get back into that habit. It did relax me. I think I'd be fine if I could smoke it out, but that's not an option sadly.

Sorry this is a novel, but if any new people are out there wondering how this can effect you, here is it. Knowledge is power to make the right choices for yourself. Not saying my experience is the norm, but its clearly possible. I might be highly sensitive to it. Is that possible? I read about people dropping 250mg at one time, I can't even imagine what that would do to me. I honestly don't think I would recover completely from something like that. Its like I can feel the changes it did to my brain, even if they are momentary. I just feel different.

If I had known what was possible, I wouldn't have had such a laissez-faire attitude about it. Maybe this will save someone else. At the very least, answer someone's questions. Please be careful out there.

 

[adoseofdopamine]

I would take 5htp bc its a step less for the body to convert it into serotonin, ya know l-tryptophan converts into 5htp then 5htp converts into serotonin. I would also workout/lift bc this stimulates more serotonin also. Eat well, fruits, veggies take a multi vitamin and fish oil. You can also try ashwagandha, this will keep your anxiety at bay right away, its a miracle herb that nobody talks about. Just make sure you do one or the other don't mix anything with 5htp, the multi and fish oil should be ok. I had the worse interaction this pass summer with 5htp and yohimbe bark, it gave me serotonin syndrome! You don't know what depression and anxiety is until you get this kind of reaction. It took me 7 months to get back to normal. But for you ill give you a month until you start to feel yourself again only cuz you didn't give your brain a break in between rolls, and I'm mean a 2-6 month break not 2 days. Don't smoke weed, it will eventually trigger more anxiety, just wait till you feel yourself again. Try to keep yourself busy, you don't wanna be sitting in quit room thinking about everything that's wrong with you, that will drive you CRAZY! Get out, hangout with friends do what ever it takes to keep yourself busy! I would also recommend melatonin if you can't sleep and this also help with serotonin replenishment. You'll be fine dude ik everything sucks right now but it will get better with time. Also next time try to do smaller doses and re dose if needed only cuz a big dose all at once is what makes for a hard comedown! Hope this helps man!

 

[Maya]

^yes you have pretty much simmarized this. I tried to take 5htp and even Rhodiola but it made me feel more anxious so I relied on exercise eating healthy etc.