Bad behaviour

[glutitis]

Hi there,

I am in day eight, of a 40mg methadone WD. This time, I was really lucky. It dindt last that long and wasnt even , like that hard. No idear, why. Do not complain, though.
But
I have looked into the safe , at the medical cabinet. ( I work in the medical field. ) Just to look for leftovers. Some patches, or pills no one neede anymore. Sometimes that happens. ( I did that without even thinking. Horrendosly stupid) Thats when I wondered.
Is this behaviour going away, with time?
Or think , of other things one does. Like cutting the bus, to get out at the scene , just to look.
Or looking for fellow addicts. People you could score from.
Is that ever going to go away?
Lurking a quick, pretty effective scan over the medications, mama has.
Scanning for valuable items, you could sell.
Is that going away?

 

[cdin]

you are only eight days out of a significant methadone dose, and still having to work around opioids. honestly that is intense af that you can even deal with that. full recovery from methadone is gonna take a couple of months minimum before your receptors are back in reasonable shape and PAWS wears down, I would expect cravings, energy problems, and depression/mood issues for a few months. it WILL get better though, provided you stay away from opioids and give your brain space to heal.

It definitely does get better with time, however.

 

[glutitis]

Thank you dear. I get that part, Did it like a hundred times.
The famous smoking sentence from Mark twain comes to mind.
( I guess, you now.. friend. Here it is: "Giving up smoking is the easiest thing in the world. I know because I've done it thousands of times")

Yeah.
But for the paws post, I do not worry too much.
But, thank you, very kind.
I meant, this thread, the behavioural mechanism. You see?
Thx anyway

 

[awkward__silence]

yes those actions come from the need to use. look forward to having more control over yourself