Back on opiates...........

[TINK]

After being off pain meds for almost 6 years due to an addiction issue, I am taking morphine ER. I have been on disability for a month now and I just can't take the pain anymore. The yoga and acupuncture has been helping but I thought that my pain would decrease without the stress of work, but it hasn't.

So, here it is 3:30am, I can't sleep and sick to my stomach. I lie down and fall asleep for about 10-15 mins then wake up. Ugh, what did I get myself into? Is it worth it?

I know I will be able to stop taking the morphine when needed. Because its ER and doesn't get me high and I dont get the addiction feeling when I take it. Especially if the side effects are going to be what I am going through right now, I may not take another dose.

 

[Ixchellian]

im loathe to touch any opiate after only 1.5 yrs off it..... no matter how bad I may hurt. even more so if it were morphine er's I was faced with, being them's what I got my start on in the first place for chronic pain....... and in small, innocuous, as needed doses at first. 8)
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believe you me, there's times now when even one or two of those fuckers would be a godsend. but that bottle better have a small count with no refills, cause I know what's in store if I start taking em regular.
sometimes though, its ok to cry uncle.... especially when the goddamn pain won't let up for anything else. and I've tried just about everything else. only lyrica & trigger point injections top morphine in effective pain relief for me

 

[Legerity]

Well I hope it's going to be helpful for you. If you need it for pain and use it for that reason then it doesn't have to turn into compulsive use. Take care of yourself.

 

[suessmayr]

Tink, I know you've got some serious physiological issues and I don't think that this necessarily has to progress to another addiction. People treat addicts as though they're somehow compulsively bound to destruction. This is probably often true, but with other people - people who have been through and beaten addiction - it may be the case that they're the least likely people to ever develop addictions again.

Chronic pain must be horrible and it's incredible that you made it 6 years. It's definitely better to be using an ER formulation than something SR. But still, if you really don't want to be on opiates, why not see about other things? You may have already done your homework, but I know there are quite a few other potent pain-killers around. Once, when I was in hospital, the pain specialist (I think) suspected me after I pressed my morphine button like 1000 times in 2 hours. So he put me on ketamine. There must be other things you can use for pain?

 

[TINK]

So I took one pill on Thursday afternoon and it made me feel like crap. I didnt sleep that night. I was bloated and just really felt like utter shit sans the pain. So, I am just going to take it for break through pain, when I absolutely can't stand the pain anymore. For those times that I want to go to the Emergency Room. I don't feel addicted because I don't want to take it again unless I am in PAIN. Ketamine Is not an approved treatment here in the US. Also as far as my pain meds I am limited to 2 for ER. The morphine and the fentyl patch. Basically because of my insurance. So, we will see what happens.