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Bluelighter
If I am getting locked up
Don't bother finding the key.
I tried it everyone elses way
Talk, talk, talk talk,
but I guess I did not talk in the right way.
Let out what you wanted to hear.
So If you find me sheltered in my mind
don't try and find the sun.
It will run it course,I will do it alone and
expect nothing.
It just realizations in the mind aren't easy
but they are only realizations to yourself.
To others it is you loosing reality, not growning up, or just a moment in time when you should calm down.
If you find it does not change me but only hurt me with the words you say. Maybe your not listening to what is really being said or needed.
I begin to feel as people say open up,
I just babble, babble, babble, babble
then everything is useless and not commmunicating way.
finally it becomes just frustration in your voices at me, it begins to be all that I hear, your tired of how I feel, I am tired of it too. I am the one in my head stuck.
The truth hurts that talking really does no good. It only makes people think things of you. Maybe the things are true.
But maybe I should just keep quiet, not let you see the way it hurts, the way it has to work it self out, trust me, letting you in was a big step.
Stepping back in one I have to take again.
Call me a coward, for stepping back, I rather be a coward then feel as I have, but reaching out, only got me slapped in the face.
Don't bother finding the key.
I tried it everyone elses way
Talk, talk, talk talk,
but I guess I did not talk in the right way.
Let out what you wanted to hear.
So If you find me sheltered in my mind
don't try and find the sun.
It will run it course,I will do it alone and
expect nothing.
It just realizations in the mind aren't easy
but they are only realizations to yourself.
To others it is you loosing reality, not growning up, or just a moment in time when you should calm down.
If you find it does not change me but only hurt me with the words you say. Maybe your not listening to what is really being said or needed.
I begin to feel as people say open up,
I just babble, babble, babble, babble
then everything is useless and not commmunicating way.
finally it becomes just frustration in your voices at me, it begins to be all that I hear, your tired of how I feel, I am tired of it too. I am the one in my head stuck.
The truth hurts that talking really does no good. It only makes people think things of you. Maybe the things are true.
But maybe I should just keep quiet, not let you see the way it hurts, the way it has to work it self out, trust me, letting you in was a big step.
Stepping back in one I have to take again.
Call me a coward, for stepping back, I rather be a coward then feel as I have, but reaching out, only got me slapped in the face.
