Ayahuasca - First Time Ayahuasca enlightenment experience [4 consecutive days dosing]

[Ayahuascero]

Now I would like to post my first great Ayahuasca experience. I am not sure if this is the right thread thou.
Ayahuasca enlightenment experience
I started to take Ayahuasca 4 days ago, Every day one session.
The first 3 sessions were a preparation for what was about to come today.
I took 3g grinded Syrian Rue and 2g powdered Mimosa in capsules.

About 1 hour after the ingestion of Ayahuasca, Mother earth consciousness started to talk to me:
“You keep on knocking on my door every day, asking about the truth!
Do you think I ll just open the door for you and show you the truth?
You don’t know what you getting yourself into!
You want to know the truth, but do you know what the real question is?
Do you think you are ready to comprehend the truth!?
For a comparison, just imagine your brain is tiny like an ants brain, do you really think you can comprehend the vast universe, you really think you can handle the real truth!?
And finally she said: Ok here you have it!”
Woooaah….!!!!
Despite my intense preparation about Ayahuasca I have to admit I was far from ready for what was about to come.
The landscape looked dead and gray first, then the very top layer of the earth started to open and an indescribable mighty beast started to emerge! Oh my god what have I done!? I have opened the Pandora’s Box!
I have heard the roar of a gigantic lion when the mighty limitless power of Mother Earths Consciousness rolled like a mega tsunami all over the land, lightening up everything with a mystical green and many other intense colors I have never seen in this world!
This just blew my mind, far from anything I ever could imagine!
Here it is, pure inconceivable consciousness everywhere, destroying every single darkness and illusion of this world on its path! Its an unstoppable mighty force. Nothing can escape; it’s engulfing every single plant, animal and human. Absolutely everything is pure consciousness, the whole world of illusion is totally gone.
As I am standing there in awe, in the middle of all of this, I conceive the knowledge of the whole universe! And it showed to me other universes, multiverses opening up in other dimensions.
There is no more I, I am gone, I am no more, all there is, is almighty pure consciousness!

Thanks to Ayahuasca, I am in the Know now.
I am initiated now.
I am part of the Ayahuasca club now.
I am in deep gratitude to all those in the web who inspired me to dig deeper into the Ayahuasca Phenomenon until I know the truth.
Now its time to share my experience to inspire others who are willing to knock on mother earths door.
So my message to you: Keep on knocking on mother earths door and it shall open, everybody has the right to know the truth!

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[Transform]

Not the right thread I'm afraid, trip reports belong in the trip reports forum. Please take a moment to read the rules and guidelines in my signature

 

[Ozekat]

Wow, I really enjoyed reading your report! Dude I want to do ayahuasca so bad!!! I had my hands on a bunch of root barks and everything I needed, me and a friend several years ago and we cooked it up but once we drank it we vomitted so soon we didn't get much psychedelic effects. I've read how the tribal people drink aya all the time and it is supposed to be super super safe and it only seems to do good things for people. I know it can be hard to sort through trauma's and depressions and stuff but once we get through that everything is brighter.

Thank you for posting!

 

[Ayahuascero]

Thanks for your great response. I have had the same experience as you in my first session. That is when I started to take both Syrian Rue and Mimosa powder directly in gel capsules. no need to brew, no bad taste, and mostly no vomiting. But great experiences. I have meanwhile 11 sessions. here is my next experience:
Spirit world
My 5th session 2 days ago was not really a break through, so I decided to try again.
Just like last time I played lovely meditation music to support my journey. Waiting already more than 3 hours for nothing I decided to turn of the music since I remembered that when I had my breakthrough in my 4th session I didn’t use music.
Sure enough, almost immediately I broke thru to the spirit world.
Our music hindered Ayahuasca to come thru because they have their own music.
For us there music is strange but I am getting used to it, even missing it sometimes.
For them our music is primitive and disturbing.
First they prepared my body and before I knew it, I turned into a black panther. Feeling very strong and agile I roamed around the spiritual world and started to call other entities by actually physically yawning again and again. That was very strange since I called the others without any sound, just doing the yawning. This sends out some kind of energy, I would say just like an ultrasound.
All kind of spirits showed up and they showed me there “daily” live. It’s full of spirits everywhere. The mood is very joyful and playful. It looked like chaos but there was total harmony, feels like being in heaven.
So that’s where we going to end up once we leave our body. However we have to come back to earth to be reborn time and time again. Until we have spiritually so advanced that we don’t need to return to a physical body anymore. Then we keep on serving god as angels.
Spiritual development is a must for everybody, there is no way around it. We are just so destructed with the material world that we forget about our true purpose. Meaning we will be stuck in the cycle of reincarnation until we finally decide to search for the real purpose of live.
Now I have decided not to waste my precious time on this earth anymore so I asked the spirits how can I serve god most effective in order to become free?
They showed me the life and work of a shaman. During an Ayahuasca ceremony they blow smoke around there students and sing their songs. From an outside view point it doesn’t look like much, but from inside you can see it’s a hell of a job, sometimes literally.
They can see the spirits of their participants and have to deal with it accordingly.
There are many lost dark souls occupying spaces in and around our body. These are the souls who died in an accident, or other sudden death and they didn’t realize that they are dead. So they try to use our body instead.
The shaman helps these lost souls to become free and go towards the light.
Well that’s only a part of his job, he has to prepare the Ayahuasca, teach and comfort the participants etc..A shaman is leading a very humble and clean live, he has one of the most sacred jobs. The reward will be freedom of reincarnation at the end.
However, there are temptations he needs to be aware of. If he for example realizes that there is the possibility to make great money due to his abilities and takes advantage of it, then he will start to lose his power. Then the dilemma starts, he needs to hide the fact that he has lost his ability, so he won’t loose his reputation. That’s when it starts to become dangerous, therefore be aware, check out the shaman very carefully before you surrender yourself to him.
Anyway, coming back to myself, the spirits have asked me to become a shaman, but not in a traditional way. I rather should become a modern shaman, using the modern media, especially the internet. In this way I can reach anybody any time anywhere in this world without wasting time, money and polluting the world with more travel on my side and on the side of those who seek help. Therefore the internet is the perfect tool to spread out the truth about life much faster than ever before, helping thousands and millions of people. And one day when the spiritual seekers have reached a critical mass, then the whole world will be transformed.
Some governments trying to suppress us, but that just makes us stronger and we will change the world very subtle but with great power, before they even realize what happened.
Remember everybody has the right to know the truth and nobody can prevent you from digging deep inside of you.
At this point I want to stress that, despite my 28 years of meditation experience (which helps a lot) I am still in elementary school in terms of Ayahuasca. And the spirits made this clear. It will take many years until I am a full fledged teacher. So I am not teaching you anything. However the spirits asked me to share my experiences with you, to inspire you, so we may go together to the school of Ayahuasca.
And finally coming to the end of this message,
Just one little advice, Don’t make my mistake, do not turn on the music while taking Ayahuasca.

 

[webbykevin]

Can you legitimately call rue and mimosa "ayahuasca ?

 

[Ayahuascero]

Legitimately using rue and Mimosa ingredients would be called Ayahuasca Analog or Anahuasca.

 

[emkee_reinvented]

Shivers and goosebumps while reading wow really need something like this Ayahuascero, I like the idea I can see the world whole again this reminds me, I feel the constriction of my conciousness is really having an effect on my life and is limiting me from full potentional. Wouldn't suprise me Ayahusaca as part of an healthy lifestyle has all kinds of good effects on the body an mind as well as on society the Ayahuasceros live in.

I am contemplating joining a Santo Daime session or doing a trip by myself (not with DMT but something else) for this purpose and am very curious about the differences between a Do It Yourself session and the ones the União do Vegetal or Santo Daime church offer. The combination of the doctrine (chants and guidance) vs go with the flow and the effects on the final outcome. I am guessing bad trips can be guided in the church setting which seems a plus. A DIY session seems somewhat unpredictable in its outcome.

 

[mozaik0000]

Ayahuascero, i certainly respect your experiences and your will to share them, but in my many years of inside and outside travels, and reading trip reports, i can't help but notice how many people who take ayahuasca a few times feel called on a Mission.

They often talk about becoming a healer, a shaman, or following a path, "joining a club" as you put it. They already want to help and guide others, now or in the future. And they sound serious and exalted. As if the meaning of their life had been revealed and all is clear now, but afterglow and integration sometimes seem overlooked.

Enthusiasm and certainty are a double edged sword if there's ever been one...
May be one of the reasons why more experienced members haven't replied here, not wanting to be party bashers.

Don't know why, but that's what came up when reading the above.
Anyhow, i wish you the best

 

[webbykevin]

To me the OP sounds confused with many references to God, angels, spirits etc.

It is important to remember that the OP has stated they are very inexperienced and new to the world of plant hallucinogens and psychedelics and as a lot of us know that journey is a long and challenging path, Take enough effective doses over time and those experiences will push your mind and reason to explore and challenge those fundamental ideologies, myths and belief systems and cultural conditioning's that you subconsciously carry.

Which is a good thing.

It forces you to examine the base principles of your metaphysics, brings you to a place were you are removed enough from the ego story to allow you to take stock of your theology, you get to see just how much of it is actually your own truth, arrived at by personal experience and how much of it is just someone else's rap that you bought.

Once you've dropped all the garbage that is not original to you, then the real journey begins.

 

[Ayahuascero]

Shivers and goosebumps while reading wow really need something like this Ayahuascero, I like the idea I can see the world whole again this reminds me, I feel the constriction of my conciousness is really having an effect on my life and is limiting me from full potentional. Wouldn't suprise me Ayahusaca as part of an healthy lifestyle has all kinds of good effects on the body an mind as well as on society the Ayahuasceros live in.

I am contemplating joining a Santo Daime session or doing a trip by myself (not with DMT but something else) for this purpose and am very curious about the differences between a Do It Yourself session and the ones the União do Vegetal or Santo Daime church offer. The combination of the doctrine (chants and guidance) vs go with the flow and the effects on the final outcome. I am guessing bad trips can be guided in the church setting which seems a plus. A DIY session seems somewhat unpredictable in its outcome.

I am happy that you are inspired by my experiences.
Its great if you can join he Santo Daime church and do your own sessions after you get some experience with the church to compare. Please let me know the difference, I am very curious.
Once you do your own Ayahuasca I can suggest taking syrian rue and mimosa capsules, which is a very easy way with less chance of vomiting. You can find my recipe in the Ayhuasca/Pharmahusca thread.

 

[Ayahuascero]

As if the meaning of their life had been revealed and all is clear now, but afterglow and integration sometimes seem overlooked.

You are absolutely right, once Ayahuasca first timers have there wonderful experiences, it is natural that they want to share it and help other people. And that's what they should do, to keep the energy flowing at least for a while. And in turn, others get inspired by there reports, and some will try it as well, just like I got inspired by first timers who had an enlightening experience.
However, the real challenge is to stay on a spiritual track in the daily life, integrating it, and still growing. Unfortunately most peoples excitement will fade away soon and even the experiences will become a distant memory. Maybe some will do another sessions on a yearly basis or so. Still better then nothing though.
As for myself, I did have similar breakthrough experiences 20 years ago, however I have achieved that only with different kind of meditations and spiritual search throughout India. It took me 7 years of full time dedication.
After that I have lost track and meditation became a sideline practice for many years.
Only now, thanks to Ayahuasca and that I am blessed with major spare time, I am back on the track and trying to stay on it for the rest of my life.
I do mention again and again in my trip reports that this is not a walk in the park and I want to encourage others to do daily meditations, regular Aya sessions and integration. I still have many reports ready to post. But I just post one at a time to give people time to respond to it.
Further, I used to make a living as a meditation teacher and emotional release therapist which comes in handy and gives me a good connection to people in search of spirituality.
Also I did mention that I can not teach anything about Ayahuasca, only sharing, which can inspire others. And it will take years of hard work to become a shaman.

 

[Ayahuascero]

What is an OP? If this refers to me, I am not at all confused, In fact I am very clear about what I was writing in my report.
As you probably know, its hard to put experiences of Ayahuasca trips in words. Maybe that's the reason why nobody else is writing a trip report about Ayahuasca.
Looks like my words sound religious to you. Well you can replace God with existence, Angels with light beings and spirits with entities. I am just using common words so even people with a religious background can relate to it.
I have heard of shamans who want you to believe in Jesus, Mother Mary and other Saints.
I am posting these reports especially for beginners, so they get an idea and inspiration to try it as well. Once they have tried it, they have there own inner guidance to guide them along there path.
Why am I the only one to write about Aya experiences? People talk a lot about Aya techniques etc. but nobody is writing about there trip. I think this is a very important aspect in this forum to expand. How else can newcomers to be inspired to become a part of it?
So please guys, write your experiences, I am also very curious what other trips like.

 

[Morninggloryseed]

As many different things as I have 'done' I am so grateful I have never taken Ayahuasca, or any form of MAOI/DMT. So grateful that its pretty much the only one left that I've saved for 'later in life' and considering (smoked, or IMed) DMT is about the best there is...in my book, I am grateful for the experiences yet to come.

Very nice 'poetic' report. /me thumbs up

 

[Ayahuascero]

Time for my next trip report. This was my 7th Ayahuasca session.
I took 3g ground Syrian Rue and 3g powdered Mimosa in capsules.
The whole session took 8 hours.
During the first 3 hours I was prepared and my body was cleaned by the spirits. Then I transformed into a panther again, but this time not just spiritually, but my whole body got involved, mimicking a panther.
I have talked about the overwhelming power coming out from mother earth during my first report. Now I went one step further, and I became this incredible power of the beast, in form of a Panther. There are times when you feel great and powerful, now try to multiply this feeling by 100 times and you will know how I felt.
I usually lie flat on the bed during the sessions, however this time I went up into a kneeling position and started to roar with a power I have never experienced before.
I had the vision of being on top of a hill and roaring into the valley all around, to show them who the boss is. When I was finish I could lie down again and received more spiritual knowledge. The purpose of experiencing this power is very basic, to be protected from any dark entities and energies and to be able to protect others from the same.
Without that power you remain stuck in this world of illusion and you will not be able to evolve spiritually.
However, with power comes responsibilities and one has to be very careful on how to use it. Use it to harm somebody, like doing black magic, and karma will hunt you down.
And here again, my body is getting up into a sitting and kneeling position and the mighty power comes from underneath, going through my panther body and out through my huge mouth, roaring all over the land. I must say having this raw incredible power feels so great, I would have never even dreamed about. Even if you are the most powerful man on earth, it is absolutely nothing comparing to this.
This cycle of power outburst is repeating again and again for 4 hours! And every time it seems to get even stronger and stronger.
Another purpose of this Adventure is, to prepare my whole system for the rising of the kundalini energy.
In between the power outbursts, I could ask the spirits all kind of questions for myself and even others. My girlfriend had a breakthrough during her first Ayahuasca session, but could not step into the spirit world anymore during the 3 following sessions.
My spirits told me that they gave her a taste of the spirit world to inspire her growth. However she must start from the basic care of the body. True spiritual growth is only possible if you have the right diet. She needs to stop eating red meat first.
Even me, I had to give up my favorite German sausage. At my first session the spirits asked me to give up drinking coffee, and I have seen a black line going through my body, blocking the energy. I was never aware that coffee would have such a bad impact.
Even though, drinking coffee was my daily morning ritual and I never started the day without it, it was easy to stop right away, and I feel much better without it.
So Ayahuasca is teaching me on every level. They even told my girlfriend to stop shopping excessive cloth! Now there is a lesson, finally somebody else then me is telling here, ha ha..
Anyway, this most mysterious, private neo shamanic school compares to no other school in this world. I don’t need to go anywhere to attend the classes on a certain time. I can do it all from home creating my own schedule, since the spirits are always ready to teach me.
And above all, what I am learning here is not just for the mind, its for the body and soul. Not just for this lifetime but for eternity.
Instead of wasting my time with running after money, I get transformed into a higher being. For now I am getting different tastes from the other world, or better to say from the real world. But the real work is to reach a permanent state of this consciousness, which will take a long time. But as they say, the journey is the goal. And for sure I couldn’t imagine a more exciting journey ever.
Ok there is one more topic I would like to talk about today.
During my last Panther outburst I suddenly made kung fu moves and I turned into a Kung Fu Panther! Now imagine this how crazy that looks? Somebody seeing this would bring me straight into a mental hospital.
I just broke out with laughter, like I haven’t laughed since 20 years ago. It was an unstoppable laughter, and I can’t tell you how relieving this was. To recognize that the whole world is a joke is an important part on the journey to the light. And we should bring in laughter into the daily life as much as possible. Don’t mind the others if you express your own craziness, they do not know how healthy this is.

 

[webbykevin]

The purpose of experiencing this power is very basic, to be protected from any dark entities and energies and to be able to protect others from the same.
Without that power you remain stuck in this world of illusion and you will not be able to evolve spiritually.
However, with power comes responsibilities and one has to be very careful on how to use it. Use it to harm somebody, like doing black magic, and karma will hunt you down.

That's pretty dark, what is your understanding of "doing black magic" ? also the word karma has no literal reference to cause and effect, karma simply means action or doing, so your karma is just what you are doing, right now, in the present moment, IMO the universe doesn't keep a score card on you and then hunt you down for payback, that's paranoia, you may carry your own buried feelings that one day you will eventually have to look at, but you do that to yourself drugs or no drugs, under the influence of psychedelics it can all seem very convincing and etheric but after years of working with the mind and consciousness I tend to feel that it's all your own stuff, nothing cosmic is going on.

That's not to say there are no mysteries or that the mystical experience is easily explained, there are times on high dose tryptamines when my reason collapses and all ontological bets are off, but It's been important to come back down and debrief myself slowly and as rationally as possible.

To recognize that the whole world is a joke is an important part on the journey to the light. And we should bring in laughter into the daily life as much as possible. Don’t mind the others if you express your own craziness, they do not know how healthy this is.

Agree 100%

The deepest laughter I have every experienced came during a mushroom trip, I was fully immersed in entity contact on many levels, It was kind of like the mad hatters tea party on multiple dimensions, there was the mushroom voice itself narrating the show, there were elves and gnomes visible and audible, there were alien morphing forms drifting around in a dimension just behind this one - like a layer in photoshop behind the main layer, there were ancestor spirits, animal totems and the felt presence of Alan Watts and Terence McKenna, we were all in this huge dimly lit edwardian dining room, lots of mahogany, red velvet and green leather.

Suddenly out of nowhere words shot out of my mouth before the thoughts behind those words had fully formed in consciousness, I said out loud to the whole scene "This is all me isn't it ?"
YES!!! was the answer shouted back by everything , and somehow I just knew that all these various entities were just different parts of me, my own psyche, and I had just asked myself and answered myself a profound realization. and I found the whole thing hilarious, I truly laughed at myself with no shame or embarrassment, I saw my craziness and loved myself for it, loved that I could fool myself and take myself in so deeply, I saw how I love running up behind myself and shouting BOO!.

I shook with glee from my very bones, I was laughing so hard it turned into healing weeping and back into laughter again with no perceivable shift between those states, It's in my top five experiences of life so far.

 

[Morninggloryseed]

I dont think I really took in how good this is the first time I read it.....and much I can identify with your words; I think I get it now... a dear friend and I were talking about poetry when I read it at first and all I took in was that it was poetic. Now I get a different view and I must say WOW! Welcome to Bluelight!

 

[Ayahuascero]

Morninggloryseed, thank you so much for your great comments.
I really appreciate it, especially coming from a very experienced Bluelight Crew.

 

[Ayahuascero]

I love your funny Story Webbykevin, thanks for your post.
Well I guess its time for my next Aya session.
I took 3g ground Syrian Rue and 2g powdered Mimosa in capsules.
The whole session took 7 hours.

8th session:Ayahuasca and spiritual developement

The spirits prepared me again as usual, cleaning out all the lower energies so I become a channel for the higher energies.
Then again I turned into a panther, but this time I became aware of details of my panther body. I started to grind my claws and became fully aware of the crashing power of my paw.
Next was the tail, my legs turned into a tail and started to move accordingly. I became fully aware of its function to steer my body while running and jumping.
Then the focus switched to the mouth with its incredibly deadly power.
This all feels just super great. And I became aware of the rest of the mighty powerful body.
The purpose of transforming into a panther is to feel the power through a physical form.

Now what I am sharing here with you doesn’t mean that you will experience the same.
Everybody is totally different and the spirits will give you exactly what is good for you to evolve.
However, Ayahuasca is not a shortcut as some people claim. Shortcut means that you don’t have to work hard to reach your goal. There is nothing for free in this universe. Everybody has to earn their way to the top. You cannot cheat by taking shortcuts. You may get a taste of enlightenment to inspire you to go the spiritual way, but you still have to work hard on yourself.
Ayahuasca however is a mighty accelerator for your spiritual path. Take it regularly and you will go through a tremendous transformation within weeks or months, which would otherwise take you many years to achieve. It is your decision how fast you want to go through this process. It also depends on how much you can handle at a time.
Usually people have to go through traumatic experiences in the past first, which is already a challenge in itself. Again and again you will have to go through the hell of fear, anger, sadness, loneliness, depression and all other emotional burdens, in order to break free into heaven.
I have been through this process 25 years ago without the help of Ayahuasca. Furthermore I used to give regression therapy sessions as an emotional release therapist. So I am very familiar with this process and I can help you to go through with it.
Now, Let’s take a look at the whole picture.
I used to guide people backwards from one life to the next, and discovered that before there human life’s, they had animal life’s thousands of years ago, another thousands or even ten thousands of years ago they were plants, and hundred thousands of years ago they were minerals.
Let’s say as a human we have to go through about 100 life times before we can leave the cycle of reincarnation. The first 80 life’s we may not even think about spirituality, we are just busy to survive the physical world. Then we start to get an inner calling for spirituality. Throughout the following life’s we try to become a better person and dig deeper into the spirituality. Now using Ayahuasca and meditation gives as a chance to speed up the whole process and you can achieve in one life time what normally takes 10 life times.
However, spiritual development doesn’t consist of Ayahuasca and meditation alone.
The most important part is to integrate the newly learned and experienced into the daily life. If you’re social intercourse doesn’t improve accordingly then it’s useless. Take your daily life improvement as a measurement of your spiritual growth.
Bless all in the spirit of Ayahuasca.
Thank you very much.

 

[webbykevin]

Shortcut means that you don’t have to work hard to reach your goal. There is nothing for free in this universe. Everybody has to earn their way to the top. You cannot cheat by taking shortcuts. You may get a taste of enlightenment to inspire you to go the spiritual way, but you still have to work hard on yourself.

I don't agree with this, in the universe I feel that everything is free. And why does finding a shortcut have to called cheating ?
The lesser intellect will always accuse the higher intellect of cheating, It's like saying we were having a competition to see who had the biggest muscles and you introduced some gimmick like judo or chi or something and you're not playing fair, you're cheating.

 

[mozaik0000]

Anyway, many thanks for letting it be known that ground up rue and mimosa can be directly gelcapped and swallowed.
Now that´s one simple quick and no loss recipe if therés ever been one.
To be tested with Confusa one day.
So much energy (and material) wasted in the Quest for Best Ayahuasca Recipe...