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The same day I had a dream, and posted here:
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I had originally written, at the end in what I wrote, that we made plans to smoke hash, and watch The Fifth Element together, but I chose to take that part down (I'm having doubts that I'm getting the hash as planned, for one... I hate lying). In conversation with her- the girl I wrote about, I told her about my dream, and that maybe it meant I was supposed to drink her. (Eat) her (sexually), trying to joke, but also being serious. She responded, at a point, "a dream cum true".
I haven't pursued, today. I think I am changing my mind.
Avi was the first girl I really kind of fell for, on that website- OkCupid. She ran away, disabling her account after I ignored her- not talking to her for a day, after we made a connection (I lock up sometimes when I like someone), and right after a voice told me "disable me!"- or something close, when I felt a sexual energy so very strong, with her in mind, unable to say it. It might have nothing to do with me, but we were certainly with each other, and sometimes still seem to be.
SEPARATION
had a dream he basically saw women as drugs, sex, and music..
and that was enough for me. the fact that he saw us that way.
that separated me from him. i no longer wanted any thing more to do with him.
The same day I had a dream, and posted here:
V-Day synch
I had a dream. I mainly remember having a cup of coffee poured, or pouring one. I haven't drank coffee since I became sick about 4 years ago.
Today I was swiping on OkCupid. Swiping is where you like someone or pass on them by swiping them right for like and left for pass. The people you like only know you like them if they like you too. It's only based on images. You don't visit their profile.
One girl, liked me today too. She works as sort of a barista in one of her jobs, making coffee, lattes, and cappuccinos (with/serving other things, too, like food/pastries).
She's 11 years younger than me, which is quite a bit. She's 20- almost 21. I'm 31, almost 32. I don't really see it going anywhere. I kind of just want to fuck around/enjoy myself a little.
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I had originally written, at the end in what I wrote, that we made plans to smoke hash, and watch The Fifth Element together, but I chose to take that part down (I'm having doubts that I'm getting the hash as planned, for one... I hate lying). In conversation with her- the girl I wrote about, I told her about my dream, and that maybe it meant I was supposed to drink her. (Eat) her (sexually), trying to joke, but also being serious. She responded, at a point, "a dream cum true".
I haven't pursued, today. I think I am changing my mind.
Avi was the first girl I really kind of fell for, on that website- OkCupid. She ran away, disabling her account after I ignored her- not talking to her for a day, after we made a connection (I lock up sometimes when I like someone), and right after a voice told me "disable me!"- or something close, when I felt a sexual energy so very strong, with her in mind, unable to say it. It might have nothing to do with me, but we were certainly with each other, and sometimes still seem to be.