electicdoe
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- Apr 9, 2008
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ok so i have got of heaps of stuff like meth,ice,heroin,ketamine,dxm,coke,weed,valium,xanax,oxy's,tramadol, and xtc oh yeah and shrooms. Most of them were like once a month except for meth and weed and xtc.
I kicked all of it but i can admit that the reason i have been off meth and everything is because of lack of access to them.
I have only tapered of the benzos like 10 weeks ago and i then self medicated with alcohol all the time. I don't trust myself and i don't know why i always crave something, anything just to feel different.
I see a psychiatrist a psychologist and a mental health team worker regularly although i have recently give up the psychologist because i felt i was not gaining anything from this particular dr.
Im at the ends of everything and i want it all to be gone and i want to stop wanting to be off my head or just altered in someway.
Now im on epilim and my liver function is showing signs of damage.
Im 22 and i need to act now.
So has anyone had experiences with rehab centres?
How was it beneficial to you
What did you learn and was it worth it?
The last time i tried to get into a rehab centre because of xanax addiction and mental health issues. Every centre in nsw, private and public, said ring back in a couple of day and we will do a phone assessment or there is a 4 month waiting list.
Is there no help for people that actually want to take that leap. I felt hopeless that day. I drove to the next town to see a dr and they said go to the hospital. The hospital said ring these people. I was crying in the hall way because it felt like no one wanted to help at all. Even when my gf rang a centre to say i was suicidel they said call back in the morning. Iv'e been o zoloft and mirtizapam and evething nuthing worked i want of everything.
I write this as im on mdpv and i have no self control. I have a bright future and qualifications. Great family that can't understand why i did drugs and mum thinks it's to do with her. I came home to get help from mum, now im off the benzos i drank secretly and i don't want to hide it from her cos she wants to help, n i don't want to hurt her.
Overall i was very dissapointed with the mental health facilities in nsw. They just passed the buck or prescribed some other pill to take.
ok thanks for reading this i know it's been all over the place and long thanks for listening.
much love to all BL'ers
I kicked all of it but i can admit that the reason i have been off meth and everything is because of lack of access to them.
I have only tapered of the benzos like 10 weeks ago and i then self medicated with alcohol all the time. I don't trust myself and i don't know why i always crave something, anything just to feel different.
I see a psychiatrist a psychologist and a mental health team worker regularly although i have recently give up the psychologist because i felt i was not gaining anything from this particular dr.
Im at the ends of everything and i want it all to be gone and i want to stop wanting to be off my head or just altered in someway.
Now im on epilim and my liver function is showing signs of damage.
Im 22 and i need to act now.
So has anyone had experiences with rehab centres?
How was it beneficial to you
What did you learn and was it worth it?
The last time i tried to get into a rehab centre because of xanax addiction and mental health issues. Every centre in nsw, private and public, said ring back in a couple of day and we will do a phone assessment or there is a 4 month waiting list.
Is there no help for people that actually want to take that leap. I felt hopeless that day. I drove to the next town to see a dr and they said go to the hospital. The hospital said ring these people. I was crying in the hall way because it felt like no one wanted to help at all. Even when my gf rang a centre to say i was suicidel they said call back in the morning. Iv'e been o zoloft and mirtizapam and evething nuthing worked i want of everything.
I write this as im on mdpv and i have no self control. I have a bright future and qualifications. Great family that can't understand why i did drugs and mum thinks it's to do with her. I came home to get help from mum, now im off the benzos i drank secretly and i don't want to hide it from her cos she wants to help, n i don't want to hurt her.
Overall i was very dissapointed with the mental health facilities in nsw. They just passed the buck or prescribed some other pill to take.
ok thanks for reading this i know it's been all over the place and long thanks for listening.
much love to all BL'ers