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August getting/staying sober v. you can do it!

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Hey guys :)

This is for anyone trying to get sober in August or stay sober. Post about your struggles, success, etc.

Please adhere to forum guidelines and the BLUA!
 
Hello August :). The month of my birth. This month should be filled with success for me. I hit a wall so to speak with my job but I am promising myself that August will be a new beginning. I have the support of my lovely boyfriend and soulmate and my generous parents and the entire community of Bluelight and Sober Living. <3

I'll fight until there is nothing left but happiness. <3 <3 <3
 
Hello August..

I had a few days that were ok as mentioned in the July thread. Slowly getting worse the past few days. Not sure what to do except keep going forward. I'm tired. Not physically just mentally. I have an extremely stressful 2 weeks coming up for reasons outside of my addiction and stress is a huge trigger for me.

I haven't yet told my friends I'm an alcoholic so they keep asking me to come drink with them. They say, "Where is the old you? What happened?"

It's tough. Feeling frustrated lately.
 
^^ Old friends ALWAYS took me out...

It wasn't until this last go around that I was willing to drop all my friends and find new ones. Probably one of the most difficult things I've had to do for my recovery. :/

I'm so happy I did though. I only hang out with people I've met at meetings/AA related events right now, and I love it. I actually know people who I can truly say are friends.. In the past they were mostly just people I used with not true friends. So be weary of hanging out with old people, in old places doing old things - Because that's what took me out time and time again.

I'm doing pretty well myself. Hello August. :)
I'm a bit down today though, a friend of mine just got kicked out of our Sober living yesterday. Manager found heroin he had stashed in the house. It was his second chance. I feel bad because he said he doesn't care anymore, and had absolutely nowhere to go last night. So basically now he's homeless, using, and from what he's told me in the past - probably suicidal. I'm fuckin' worried about him... But All I can do is pray and hope he finds his way back to treatment before it's too late. :\

On a lighter note - going on an adventure to Santa Cruz with a lady friend tomorrow - should be hella fun. =D
Probably going to hit a meeting down there at some point, and the rest is a surprise for me - I'm guessing she's going to take me to a Buddhist Monastery that my friends ashes are at down there, but I'm not going to say anything to her, A in case I'm wrong, B in case I'm right don't want to ruin the surprise aspect she's trying to give me. Regardless it will be a fun trip.

Also, I start acting as Resident Adviser at my sober living house tomorrow night. Should be interesting...
Stay positive everybody!
 
caseface99 said:
^^ Old friends ALWAYS took me out...

It wasn't until this last go around that I was willing to drop all my friends and find new ones. Probably one of the most difficult things I've had to do for my recovery. :/

I'm so happy I did though. I only hang out with people I've met at meetings/AA related events right now, and I love it. I actually know people who I can truly say are friends.. In the past they were mostly just people I used with not true friends. So be weary of hanging out with old people, in old places doing old things - Because that's what took me out time and time again.

I'm doing pretty well myself. Hello August. :)
I'm a bit down today though, a friend of mine just got kicked out of our Sober living yesterday. Manager found heroin he had stashed in the house. It was his second chance. I feel bad because he said he doesn't care anymore, and had absolutely nowhere to go last night. So basically now he's homeless, using, and from what he's told me in the past - probably suicidal. I'm fuckin' worried about him... But All I can do is pray and hope he finds his way back to treatment before it's too late. :\

On a lighter note - going on an adventure to Santa Cruz with a lady friend tomorrow - should be hella fun. =D
Probably going to hit a meeting down there at some point, and the rest is a surprise for me - I'm guessing she's going to take me to a Buddhist Monastery that my friends ashes are at down there, but I'm not going to say anything to her, A in case I'm wrong, B in case I'm right don't want to ruin the surprise aspect she's trying to give me. Regardless it will be a fun trip.

Also, I start acting as Resident Adviser at my sober living house tomorrow night. Should be interesting...
Stay positive everybody!
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Friends are major. I've been thinking of moving out of this state (not sure where to yet) just so I can get away from old bad memories.

Have fun on your trip!
 
^^ Thanks! She's on her way over to pick me up. :)


If you've got bad memories at certain places, one thing I like to do is hang out at those places with new friends making new memories to overwrite the old. That's actually part of what I'm doing in Santa Cruz today - Until recently I only had memories of being down there at my friends house using heroin.
 
Girlfriends gone for awhile, just ran into an old using friend. It's as if the universe is tempting me. But I have no desire to relapse!
 
OK, August! You will be my first month this year since January that I will have kept away from stims, alcohol, and my psychedelic DOCs.

I have happily resigned myself to continue seeing Mary Jane, as she does help me forget to dwell on the other stuff.
 
I feel liberated. My lovely boyfriend gave me a nice perspective which changed a lot of how I think. I feel a sense of freedom.
 
ArtVandalay said:
Girlfriends gone for awhile, just ran into an old using friend. It's as if the universe is tempting me. But I have no desire to relapse!
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The universe is tempting you. Eff that, right? Keep on fightin for your life. Like I read earlier somewhere, the addiction is trying to kill us, for a temporary and costly thrill.

stardust.hero said:
I feel liberated. My lovely boyfriend gave me a nice perspective which changed a lot of how I think. I feel a sense of freedom.
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Freedom! I could use a good dose of that! Amerika's not the place for it anymore, though. :(
 
caseface99 said:
^^ Thanks! She's on her way over to pick me up. :)


If you've got bad memories at certain places, one thing I like to do is hang out at those places with new friends making new memories to overwrite the old. That's actually part of what I'm doing in Santa Cruz today - Until recently I only had memories of being down there at my friends house using heroin.
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That's a good idea! I may use that. :)

neversickanymore said:
Payday.. and I'm so glad I'm not going to give it all or any to the god damn dealers.. hope you are well today:-)
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Yes! Good job everyone. Let's make our last summer month (for those of us experiencing summer) a good one.
 
^I'm very excited for August to come and to go. This summer was a wash for me (though I blame half of it on hurricane season :p) Pun is always intended =D.

This past year I've let every force around me dictate my life. New beginnings are exciting. Even if nothing around me has changed, I am changing and that will change how I perceive the things around me..and in turn they will then change (if only in my mind)..but that's all that counts :).
 
I'm having a really bad fucking night.

My hope I felt a few days ago is gone. I'm in such a low right now.. I can't get out.

Cravings are unreal.. I just want to give up. Thankfully I have nothing in the house or I'm almost guaranteed it would be in my body right now.
 
Went to bed.. huddled under my covers shaking until I feel asleep. Phew, that was a bad moment. Worst I've had in a while. Not sure what caused it.

Today is a new day. I survived.
 
Nice work 12.. never have to act on a craving.. its just an illusion that the world is going to end;)

August..

I always like this month..
There is something about the sunlight, it starts to take on that golden hugh..
The light starts to whisper of the coming fall.. and I love no season as much as fall..
often a beautiful summer scene in this light reminds us that we had better not miss summer if we have so far, so we make a promise to ourselves..
"You know what all this important stuff I have been doing isn't that important, important but not enough to let a summer pass me by.."
So I'm going to procrastinate on a few things, and skip a few more.. cause what is the point of it all if you dont take a little time to stop an smell the flowers..
I'm going to read a summer book, I'm going to cook ten good summer meals, and im going to get a little more sun..

remember when we were young and the summer lasted for life times..
Now a season seems to be akin to a little day dream..

Who ever created time must have been a little dyslexic.. or possibly was having a bad day??
Cause for some reason they made time fly when we are happy.. and it stand still when we aren't:sus:

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