That is the estimated date of my conception.
January 1980, the date my parents found out that I was going to be born with what they called at time time "disabilities" and probably would be "retarded" because of them. Yeah the 80s docs were smrt.
April 22nd 1980 is the day I was born, a whole month premature. Cleft palate, jauntice, deprived of air for 2 minutes, a whopping 9Lbs 10oz though.
My grandparents said I should have been aborted cause who wants a retarded "handicapped kid to raise. Then while in NICU my genius parents went out for dinner and got drunk then came to see me, yeah smrt parents. First encounter with CAS.
Skip ahead to childhood era 1983 - 1989. My dad and bro are dealing pot, my whole family doing drugs of all sorts, I'm left raising myself, rarely having clean appropriate clothes or food living in housing (the projects is the american equivilant).
All members of my family are mentally ill but my parents not diagnosed until much later on in my life. My dad telling me daily how I'm a loser and a failure and a retard. Getting teased each day at school for my speach issues. I get a crush on one of my only friends in 3rd grade, he turns me down laughing in my face saying im too ugly n too retarded.....this coming from my bestfriend @ school. Then my bestfriend at home I find out is getting a daily ass raping by my youngest brother from the time she was 4yrs old until 12yrs old. THEN of all irony my only friend left from my brother drama bullshit gives me a daily ass raping for 3yrs before beating me to a pulp. THEN I meet my bestfriend, my love, my "John" who's dad was selling his son for sex to support his heroin and crack habbit. November 15 1990 "John" the love of my life took an unknown drug, was under psychosis or just went crazy from it all. He pulled out a gun after balling in my arms for 3hrs and pointed it in my back then my face and asked if i wanted to die too, told me he never loved me, then blew the head off. Me covered in.....the result. I ran and hid and bawled and went nuts for a while. No one ever knew I was even there with him, suprisingly. He was only 16, I WAS 10 yrs old.
1990-1992 the years of my brother's court for molesting my ex-bestfriend, where he was found not-guilty cause no one would rat him out.
I met my current bff in 1991, the only good thing in my life really ever but we've never been super close, though we're like sisters. She wanted to kill herself in 1993, I saved her by just sitting on the phone and talking. Secretly I was very fucking scared.
January 1980, the date my parents found out that I was going to be born with what they called at time time "disabilities" and probably would be "retarded" because of them. Yeah the 80s docs were smrt.
April 22nd 1980 is the day I was born, a whole month premature. Cleft palate, jauntice, deprived of air for 2 minutes, a whopping 9Lbs 10oz though.
My grandparents said I should have been aborted cause who wants a retarded "handicapped kid to raise. Then while in NICU my genius parents went out for dinner and got drunk then came to see me, yeah smrt parents. First encounter with CAS.
Skip ahead to childhood era 1983 - 1989. My dad and bro are dealing pot, my whole family doing drugs of all sorts, I'm left raising myself, rarely having clean appropriate clothes or food living in housing (the projects is the american equivilant).
All members of my family are mentally ill but my parents not diagnosed until much later on in my life. My dad telling me daily how I'm a loser and a failure and a retard. Getting teased each day at school for my speach issues. I get a crush on one of my only friends in 3rd grade, he turns me down laughing in my face saying im too ugly n too retarded.....this coming from my bestfriend @ school. Then my bestfriend at home I find out is getting a daily ass raping by my youngest brother from the time she was 4yrs old until 12yrs old. THEN of all irony my only friend left from my brother drama bullshit gives me a daily ass raping for 3yrs before beating me to a pulp. THEN I meet my bestfriend, my love, my "John" who's dad was selling his son for sex to support his heroin and crack habbit. November 15 1990 "John" the love of my life took an unknown drug, was under psychosis or just went crazy from it all. He pulled out a gun after balling in my arms for 3hrs and pointed it in my back then my face and asked if i wanted to die too, told me he never loved me, then blew the head off. Me covered in.....the result. I ran and hid and bawled and went nuts for a while. No one ever knew I was even there with him, suprisingly. He was only 16, I WAS 10 yrs old.
1990-1992 the years of my brother's court for molesting my ex-bestfriend, where he was found not-guilty cause no one would rat him out.
I met my current bff in 1991, the only good thing in my life really ever but we've never been super close, though we're like sisters. She wanted to kill herself in 1993, I saved her by just sitting on the phone and talking. Secretly I was very fucking scared.
