Yes benzodiazepines are very dangerous drugs to be given out, presumably more than narcotic pain medications which are much safer in terms of withdrawals, long term effects, etc...
I took ativan for appx. 3 months, almost daily, before i first tasted the minor wd's (1mg 2X a day, used to abuse occasionally also) i thought these were "safe" and all that jazz. I laid awake that night trying to get to sleep, tossing and turning in pain.
Now, though i am still prescribed to ativan, i trade a trusted friend for xanax because the lorazepam tend to make me helplessley depressed, and xanax are much easier for me to tolerate and IMO withdrawal isn't quite as bad(ALTHOUGH, i hardly ever abuse the xanax unless im in opioid withdrawals, when i take appx. 1.5-2mg of Alprazolam to combat muscle aches&pains as well as to encourage sleep and produce a minor mood lift, not unlike that of alcohol).
HOwever, if i take lorazepam during withdrawal i will be borderlined suicidal/homicidal, but xanax is a whole nother ball park.
The key to using benzodiazepines responsibly is to not think of them as recreational drugs. And IMHO, they aren't at all. Believe me, i've had my days (back in HS) where i'd buy xanax bars off people and take a whole one and enjoy class, and even have tried to get fucked up on them.
Basically, look at this medicine as a harmful drug, that can be very useful at times, but it should be taken during those times only. Take it ONLY when you NEED it.
Just wait untill your so flooded with anxiety that your body is shivering, and pop your usual dose. Believe me, it's night and day.
If you have anxiety every minute of every hour of every day then i would not suggest the use of benzodiazepines for your condition. That WILL take you down a much worse path than using meditation and other non-pharmaceutical methods for controlling anxiety.
I consider myself very lucky for not being blinded by the benzo haze and getting addicted to the point of no return.
Now, i have about 20 .5 xanax, and usually i break them in half for the run of the mill anxiety etc.. (although past 2 days in WD i've taken 1mg in the evenings).
So basically just lower your dose as low as possible. If you can't resist the urge to pop pills then i suggest you do a fast taper half way down then go cold turkey.
Idk why everyone is so scared of withdrawal, you just need a game plan, and some time to yourself.
It's almost spiritual to me...you learn alot about yourself. After a while of withdrawing every week or two you get used to it haha.
Good luck brither, have faith in yourself, you'll be ok.
If you've good insurance, i'd accept the paxil, fil it, and not take a single one. Tell your new bitchy doc, about the GOD AWFUL side effects, and that you refuse to take any other antidepressants.
I have told my docs that i will not take anti depressants. I once spent about 4 or 5 months on lexapro...never ever again. That shit ain't natural, i wish my pharmacy sold weed and my insurance paid for 95% so it was like $2.50 per gram of GRADE A....i'd never pop a pill again...okay maybe some hydros or oxy, but seriously if i could afford weed i don't think i'd take as many pain pills.