Daddy's Girl
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Sep 18, 2013
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- 10
Hey y'all. I'm a 34 yr old female that has been fighting the war to get off benzos for 3 yrs now after experiencing interdose withdrawals and reaching tolerance several yrs before and never knew what it was, just knew I didn't feel good. I've been to 2 detox centers. My last one was a month long stay where they cold turkeyed me off of 10mgs of Ativan. That was last Feb. I got back on 5mgs of Ativan as soon as I walked out of detox because I could not handle the mental withdrawal symptoms. I am currently seeing an addictionologist and can't seem to budge from the 5 mgs due to mental withdrawals being so bad. I have SEVERE depersonalization/derealization, anxiety, fear, confusion, depression, dizziness. I have been thru manic phases but what gets me the most is the dp/dr. It's 24/7. I don't get a break unless I'm sleep, which I rarely do. I have NO SENSE OF REALITY WHATSOEVER WITH MYSELF OR MY SURROUNDINGS. I am always confused/cog fog. Can't remember ANYTHING. AND ALL OF THESE SXS ARE CONSTANT. I NEVER GET A WINDOW OR FEEL NORMAL. IM AT A TOTAL LOSS HERE AND ANY HELP IS APPRECIATED. THANK YOU.