At a crossroads with DXM

[Grand Touring]

I responded wonderfully to dxm for about a year, and had some mentally altering and pretty much life altering experiences. But it's unfortunate that I abused it so much that after the first year I started to experience that "loss of magic" associated with abusing dxm for time on end. I am at a crossroads and need your help and insight, because I started getting the worst rushes of fear and death, uncontrollable muscle clenching, and other terrible side effects when I'm coming down. I'm pretty sure it's related to serotonin syndrome and this makes it not worth it to me, just begging to come down. These negative side-effects last over an hour and I've come to the realization that I'm no longer going to be able to use dxm. This is really tough for me as it has helped me with life issues, self respect/love, personal insight, and appreciation of everything. It opened up a whole new world and helped me look at things from a whole new view/perspective. The single best time I had on ANY drug was with dxm. I come to realizations and contemplate things I wouldn't be able to otherwise, and this is why I am at a crossroads. I know that I will be missing out on all of those benefits, and is already psychologically straining. I had actually started using dxm to help aid withdrawals from opiates, but turned into a whole new priority.

Any advice in coping, or other drugs that would help me similarly. I understand how it's a dissociative and works on the NMDA receptors, and know I could try ketamine, mxe, or pcp, but is it worth it? There was pcp in my ecstasy a couple times and I responded just as wonderful as dex. Any help?

Thanks, guys!

 

[Splitz]

The important thing about dissociatives is that they're addictive. It's wonderful that you took positive things from DXM use, however you should have stopped while you were ahead, because once you stop using and start abusing, you end up where you are now, with all the work being undone (I guess that goes without saying).

Replacing DXM with another drug is NOT the way to go either, and nobody here will tell you that it is. You may see benefits, but it's extremely likely you'll wind up repeating the same pattern of abuse, especially as you've been addicted to opiates and now struggling with DXM. Another issue with that is that you'll have a fair bit of tolerance to these chemicals, that you would have built up with DXM (that's the way tolerance works with dissociatives). That could means you're going to hammer your body even more trying to get these other drugs to work and put yourself in more danger.

Bluelight has a special support forum for people struggling with these things and I recommend you check it out as they will be able to help you more in terms of coping: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/forums/47-The-Dark-Side

I think you should think about cutting out all drugs from your life, at least those with any addiction potential. I wish you the best of luck.

 

[deadheadgirl]

I've been having the same problem I've been on it for over a year after taking it for 4 days straight last week It has almost no effect I take 2 bottles and barely get to the 2nd plateau. Try laying off for atleast 2 weeks I'm trying to stay off it for atleast that long if not long term, Note that I was taking it every other day for about 6 months and daily for 4

 

[DubNaut]

stop the dxm, take a break.
its been a couple years since i have ingested any dxm what so ever
there are long-term consequences possibly in the future with dissociative abuse
just stay clear now, they are not something to be done to do,
respect, patience and you will experience once again

 

[mecaib]

Sorry to hear about your loss, but it isn't permanent. I believe you can use DXM infrequently and still gain the benefits. The key is to take it with something you know will make you feel happy. For me, that additive (based on recent positive results), is gabapentin.

For about a year, I was taking 2nd-3rd plateau doses of DXM 1-3 times a week, and loved every trip. But when I went back to it after a long vacation, I found that it was producing mild dysphoria, even in small amounts. But when, after some time, I took it with a euphoriant (gabapentin or pseudoephedrine[PSE]), the trip was great again, with all the benefits left intact. Beware though, a dose of PSE sufficient to achieve euphoria will limit the amount of DXM you can take. Too much DXM mixed with PSE might have very negative consequences.

You should approach this cautiously, lest you fall back into the pattern of abuse. Don't take it when you are feeling depressed. Take it very infrequently, and apply the lessons gained from each trip before partaking again. I wish you all the best in your endeavors