sprockets2000
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 12, 2010
- Messages
- 79
Okay so its time to tell the truth, many times when I post on here I seem to have a holy than thou attitude, this is because I lie to myself and even on the internet for some reason i do not want to sound like such an utter shit bag.
Anyway I recently claimed to be prescribed fentanyl patches, truth be told they wernt prescribed to me. I am and continue to be in pain but decide a week ago im going to get off opiates. Fentanyl is literally the cheapest and best drug I can get ahold of, I HAVE TRIED to explain to the doctors at the va that I am seeing to prescribe me some damn opiates, you know the same kind they used to prescribe me until I admited to being an addict ( trust me honesty is not always the best thing) like hydros and oxies.
I do not understand why the doctors will not prescribe me something like hydrocodones or oxycodones if I agree to turn in all my patches until rehab which has a waiting list. They say methadone or suboxone is the only option but that just sounds like retarded bullshit if im going to rehab, why not take my FENTANYL and replace it with say 15mg ir oxies, yes ill have withdrawl, yes it will suck but i wont be continuing down this road, and fentanyl already scares the shit out of me etc.
I dont get it, I do ave legitimate pain, but every since I admitted on my own that I was seeking help because of addiction I have been labeled the do not prescribe guy.
I dont go a day without opiates, not hard for me to get but everything I can get my hands on for cheap is all too fucking strong, all I can get my hands on are opana and fentanyl and heroin I am considering just smoking heroin if it comes to it.
Any advice is welcomed, and sorry for lying in earlier post, but I dunno why i dont like people seeing me for what I am and furthermore fentanyl scares me both phsycailly and legally if you get what im saying.
Anyway I recently claimed to be prescribed fentanyl patches, truth be told they wernt prescribed to me. I am and continue to be in pain but decide a week ago im going to get off opiates. Fentanyl is literally the cheapest and best drug I can get ahold of, I HAVE TRIED to explain to the doctors at the va that I am seeing to prescribe me some damn opiates, you know the same kind they used to prescribe me until I admited to being an addict ( trust me honesty is not always the best thing) like hydros and oxies.
I do not understand why the doctors will not prescribe me something like hydrocodones or oxycodones if I agree to turn in all my patches until rehab which has a waiting list. They say methadone or suboxone is the only option but that just sounds like retarded bullshit if im going to rehab, why not take my FENTANYL and replace it with say 15mg ir oxies, yes ill have withdrawl, yes it will suck but i wont be continuing down this road, and fentanyl already scares the shit out of me etc.
I dont get it, I do ave legitimate pain, but every since I admitted on my own that I was seeking help because of addiction I have been labeled the do not prescribe guy.
I dont go a day without opiates, not hard for me to get but everything I can get my hands on for cheap is all too fucking strong, all I can get my hands on are opana and fentanyl and heroin I am considering just smoking heroin if it comes to it.
Any advice is welcomed, and sorry for lying in earlier post, but I dunno why i dont like people seeing me for what I am and furthermore fentanyl scares me both phsycailly and legally if you get what im saying.
