Shuddr2Think
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 24, 2000
- Messages
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things always stay the same
and only people change.
i grasped this concept far too late
for it to be truely useful...
which is more often than not
my general downfall.
its surreal to me that
two years gone by and you are the same
and i haven't quite caught up
to the realization of you
and who you are
you grew
and yet
i worry about
your choices
without me around
to protect and defend you
as i always did
it was a role i played
wholeheartedly for so long
that i now feel empty
without you around
to watch over.
you found yourself
and i have yet to
find me.
although occasionally
i catch glimpses of us
of me
in you and your life
every once in awhile
your love for a certain song
that weird fidget you do with your leg
a scent you adore
that i once wore
and how you still look at me
the same.
its funny how we still effect each other
regardless of locations
or situations
like ours
friends enemies and halfway back again
more times than i can comprehend.
and my heart is still in too many ways
all yours...
shy from the memory of you
it doesn't seem to hurt anymore
and i can listen to that song again
and the smell of you
doesn't haunt my mind and
throw me back down into
that spiral that is
our neverending and continuous
life.
i always have believed that
we are all involved to
serve some higher purpose
and of late
i question what my purpose was
for you.
a friend.
it perplexed me for years
why we were
until you weren't around anymore
and i was empty.
and now
that time has passed
and winter has turned to spring
i think i understand.
we paint the backgrounds of each others lives
and make them candy colored and dismal
and we are real.
you are that song playing at that moment
when i need nothing more
than to feel
anything.
and without you
i wouldn't be
who i am
as of today
and my world would
still be grey.
and only people change.
i grasped this concept far too late
for it to be truely useful...
which is more often than not
my general downfall.
its surreal to me that
two years gone by and you are the same
and i haven't quite caught up
to the realization of you
and who you are
you grew
and yet
i worry about
your choices
without me around
to protect and defend you
as i always did
it was a role i played
wholeheartedly for so long
that i now feel empty
without you around
to watch over.
you found yourself
and i have yet to
find me.
although occasionally
i catch glimpses of us
of me
in you and your life
every once in awhile
your love for a certain song
that weird fidget you do with your leg
a scent you adore
that i once wore
and how you still look at me
the same.
its funny how we still effect each other
regardless of locations
or situations
like ours
friends enemies and halfway back again
more times than i can comprehend.
and my heart is still in too many ways
all yours...
shy from the memory of you
it doesn't seem to hurt anymore
and i can listen to that song again
and the smell of you
doesn't haunt my mind and
throw me back down into
that spiral that is
our neverending and continuous
life.
i always have believed that
we are all involved to
serve some higher purpose
and of late
i question what my purpose was
for you.
a friend.
it perplexed me for years
why we were
until you weren't around anymore
and i was empty.
and now
that time has passed
and winter has turned to spring
i think i understand.
we paint the backgrounds of each others lives
and make them candy colored and dismal
and we are real.
you are that song playing at that moment
when i need nothing more
than to feel
anything.
and without you
i wouldn't be
who i am
as of today
and my world would
still be grey.
